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2009-12-25T21:59:00.001+08:00

HELLO to this dead blog=))
anw,jus updating for fun
should i close my blog?haha.i tink its quite pointless...to continue posting on a barren blog

2009-08-24T21:17:00.009+08:00

national day outing!!!

sports bash at home club!

pool games during sports camp!!!

SPORTS CAMP!!!

bbq at hall 6!!!

wakeboarding AGAIN!!!

wakeboarding!!!

wakeboarding

i look cool ya???

PLAYING DURING LECT

INSINYUR ENGINEERING CAMP!!!

SECRET PAL NITE IN ENGINE CAMP

GAMES IN ENGINE CAMP

DOING FORFEIT AS ZHAO CAI MAO

THE MUAH CHEE AT SENTOSA AARGH

I'M NOT A PARTY GAL!!

ENGINE CAMP!

SHOOTING CUM PIGGYBACK GAME

NATIONAL DAY OUTING!

SPORTS BASH

MAYFLOWER OUTING

HEY!!!back again=)but lazy to add pics or talk much...ok brief outline...

recently i was v busy with outings and all-.-

firstly was national day outing wif my engine camp pp!!!was really fun tho i kena saboed and had to go to a boy boy,point to his tie and ask"can jie jie have ur tie?" and den give him a kiss.so EMBARRASSING LA!!!why must i kena forfeit when i lose indian poker???!!!anw,e boy's dad was like"aft kiss u ,she can kiss me?!"which was totally ?!!!!!!

anw,den i went to sports camp outing at mayflower only disney world...we drank till we were totally gone.i tink i had 4 or 5 bottles of beer down all in record time la!!!ended up so gone i couldn't walk and fell down.and a guy had to support me all e way back to hall...and tats where all e scandal started.i swear its jus SUPPORTING!nothing else!!!

another sports camp outing was the bbq at hall 6=)really great time man,until i was forced to take a heart shape pic with someone.sian why i everytime kena tis typr of stuff????

next we had sports bash...wat the!!!!i drank till i almost died man.cant imagine i could take so much hard liqour down la.i tink i drank like 5 mugs of hard liqour plus like mayb one fifth of a jug down???den thx god chaoching supported me again coz i was damn high.but den everyone start scandalising us again.i swear chao ching is jus a gentlemen helping a drunk lady

ok and we had HTHT nite for engine camp pp e nite rite aft mayflower.wa i was quite sian coz i drank like 2 nitex in a row like some alcoholic but thx god it wasn't much.but i guess first week of hostel i slept at ard 3am-5am every nite and i had to go sch in e morn=(

now pics~!!!

2009-08-02T14:30:00.001+08:00

hey i'm back!!!
i jus came back from engine camp=)it was fun but kinda tiring coz well we only get to sleep like 3 hrs everyday?haha.but its fun tho!!!

there are segments like the beach muachee thing that REALLY left an impression coz its so painful!!!!well its like a whole row of freshmen lying tgt and den one is rolled over e entire line!!!!freaking pain i tell u.its like no.1 e weight of e person .no2 is the friction caused by the sand!!!!

and i was so lucky to get tortured by my teammate.lol.coz he derailed and landed on my knees(causing me to scream like a banana) and then e most painful part was when they told him to continue and he rolled back OVER ME AGAIN...wa,i tink i'll remem e pain for life la

lol.and when i was rolling,i felt like i'm being thrown lei...so unglamorous and PAIN!!!lol.but its fun i guess.never really experienced it before.and and they have the freshmen initiation thing at nite while we're blindfolded.seriously,e blindfold thing was really torture coz it makes u feel like sleeping and yet u cant.u're supposed to be dating ur secret pal*yawns*and plus they cheat u somemore.they pair u up with seniors pretending to be freshies(damn i got cheated twice!)

but e secret pal nite thing tat i was dreading wasn't tat bad.at least i wasn't paired up with a wall.or i swear i'll strangle him and get him to entertain me.

oh and plus concealers really worked.i tink i looked like some bangla panda when we had our secret pal nite.thank god concealer came to save me.ta-da!!!

but e bad news was rite aft engine camp i fell ill,i tink its by far e most serious illness coz i had high fever of like 39.5 for 2 days.it was pure torture coz i had such a bad headache i really almost couldn't walk.plus i had all e symtoms.looking back,i really tink i might have h1n1.haha

would love to post pics but.............there's something wrong i cant post pics.so i shall write about e battered leg of mine next time=)

2009-06-16T17:51:00.005+08:00

lol...hey pp.i'm here again!!!!!!!

lol...remem 3 months ago,on a wet rainy day,i went to serangoon gardens with my mom...Alas!I FELL!really unglam too btw,half of my legs on e pavement,e oth half on e drain...i did a split and hurt my ankle on e way...e very nex month,my boss mention to me he tinks i'm limping...and i jus tot nothing of it.now 3 months later,e pain has returned...and my leg is now.............

see above....and i need to use a medicated oil.haha

moral of the story...dun drag things on...ouch!

anw,i jus went back to touch rug recently for matches with our juniors...nice to catch up wif e gals=)but still ahrdly any seniors came...disappointed...den i found out ash is gg canada to study and all...sigh,i guess i'll miss that mosquito sometime...hahah.btw,i was a total failure man...i totally understood i gained 7 kg=(

man,i could not sprint anymore and i felt so useless...time to lose weight cass!!!!!!!!!

2009-05-14T20:18:00.002+08:00

lol
tmr we're upgrading+()
instead of full protective gear ro scan ic
we're jus having a mask

recently,i've been pretty moody and tired...
sorry pp for not being able to keep up ya?
my sis has extended a invitation to go drinking hard liqour
its good to drink away all e bad incidents sometimes
forget everything and everyone
haha
mayb i shld stop trying to be nice.

speaking of which.heard tat someone was backstabbing someone.makes me wonder if u dun noe e person personally,how can e person have a right to backstab?unless it WAS a fren or something la.

i tink i've mellowed alot as compared to before...i'm now more tolerant and more likely to keep quiet.sigh wats wrong with me?i feel like a mute
a useless mute mule

2009-05-03T11:04:00.001+08:00

me and chun hern is officially over.

tell me,why do i feel as tho my efforts for e past 1 yr is gg down e drain?

its ok,its alright,its time to fly.

guess i got back my freedom but with some additional emotional baggage.

sigh.

why cass,why cry?

time will heal all wounds

love

2009-04-13T11:26:00.002+08:00

i've never really figured out the real extent of my parents concern for me...yes,i was a whiny brat .forever whining and complaining to my parents,saying things like"when are u gonna cook finish?my tummy is gonna rot soon!"

i was also very very rude to them because i bear grudges over incidents from the past.

yes they may have made mistakes in the past but though they were overly strict and harsh in their punishment,they have made several sacrifices to jus placate me and my demands.

ever since i got this new job,my dad has been waking up every morning without fail at 6 or 7am jus to cook a breakfast cum lunch meal for me before i go to work.my mum stays up after her work to wait for me to come home so she can warm up the food and i can eat all i want.

Today my dad woke up early coz yester in a fit of irritation i said sarcastically" i dun nid new shirts,jus someone who will do the laundry".They did not do the laundry because of the wet showers for the past few days.Today he woke at 5 plus am jus to wash the clothes and because he's scared it might not dry in time for me,he hung it out by the front(which was illegal) and stood there to watch over it.He also cooked the usual breakfast cum lunch meal.

i feel guilty coz i was such a spoilt brat and rude.particularly my mum.everything that could not go well,i'll push e blame to her.if iwas ill or vomitted,i would blame her.On after sight,it was too much.

so while i find it hard to say a simple "thank you "word to my dad today,i do appreciate e work they do.
Tinking of the predicament of my uncle,i tink i should appreciate them more coz when time comes around when they leave suddenly,i may have regrets.

2009-04-01T11:20:00.002+08:00

2009-03-31T12:20:00.003+08:00

Hypocrites are really hateable.
esp e ones who divulge a secret and then do not dare to own up and still try to push e blame to other people.and i hate those who divulge a secret claiming that his/her good fren deserve to noe it.
it may be so long ago,but i'm sure most noes who i'm talking about.
speaking of which,mayb its rite that pp try to avoid them.

lets move on to a new topic!i may be quitting tis job soon!
its so tough!sunburn and stand in e rain and all.but i guess e pp i meet are really great.they really help u from their bottom of their heart.stark contrast to the above mentioned!
i really wanna thx jun he,leonard and james for really helping me when i'm on e verge of giving up.junhe ,tho he's a ass sometimes(sprouting vulgarities and hitting me on e head),he noes how to motivate pp right!(lik gg to petshop and play-.-")thx alot.and plus he tries his hardest not to use vulgarities on me no matter how unmotivated or downcast i am=)i understand that tis sales job requires a good attitude throughout but thx for understanding when i'm demoralised!

Leonard thx for helping me when i jus wanted to give up coz i was tired.ur must-eat-every-two-hours attitude was great!it motivated me thru food!

James,can u stop bloody tickling me?i sound like i have epileptic fits all e time!hahaha.but thx for chipping in when i jus sat and refused to continue...man,i was a total SPOILT BRAT.

thx to e rest for bringing joy to my working life like weicheng tho he keep suaning e oths,joyce---------haha!u bowl that time super funny------- and more!

speaking of which i really like this company coz there are really nice and supportive pp there (unlike someone i noe who only sprout vulgarities ).........

bowlin! in all i got three strikes!!! hahahaha miracle eh?and it came at the rite time so zhi xiong can treat me lunch!!!!yeyeyeyeye! haha

2009-03-28T15:51:00.001+08:00

2009-03-06T21:09:00.002+08:00

I feel terrible
first as a fren and second as a student

my results was terrible.i keep thinking wats the point of having took 4h2s if i didn't do that well for all,Yes,i tot tat i'll have an edge and that i can cope with it.But now,i feel REGRET.why?why insist on taking something more?i insisted that it'll give me more choices of courses in uni.I'm not wrong but has this back up plan ruin my dream of a science course?
Here are my results

GP:B
H2 GEOG:B
H2MATH:A
H2CHEM:B
H2PHY:B

was that result bad?i feel awful when my frenz all get better grades than me.
But i felt terrible when cheryll got 4 As and i didn't congrat her coz i wasn't happy she won me.Yes,its hard to imagine her winning me coz usually i do better than her.But when she finally does so well and is so happy,should i have thrown my little tantrum and jus ignore her?i admit,i wasn't happy i lost to her and the other cheryl coz the only excuse i have for losing is that my combination is harder than theirs.but i should have acted like a real fren.Its a terrible feeling coz on one hand,i noe i'm being downright loser yet on the oth hand,i cant accept that she won me.

I noe its not the end of the world but why do i feel as though my results are terrible?But thx to farrell,i feel better coz he told me the reality of my dream course and made me feel happier with my results.he made me realise that thats not e only good course.THX BIG TIME!

2009-03-02T18:26:00.002+08:00

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*GEOG ALL THE WAY TO JC LEVEL
*E MATH ALL THE WAY TO SEC 3
*AMATH ALL THE WAY TO SEC 3
*PHY(PURE)

RATES:MARKET RATE
JC:30-35/HR
SEC:18-25/HR
QUALIFICATIONS:
ENG:A2
MATH:A1
AMATH:A1
COMBINED HUMANS:A1(BUT I TOOK H2 GEOG AT JC SO I CAN COVER PURE GEOG)
PHY(PURE):B3(TOOK H2 PHY IN JC)]
CHEM(PURE):A2(TOOK H2 CHEM IN JC)

A LEVELS RESULTS WILL BE REVEALED BY THIS FRIDAY.CURRENTLY WAITING FOR A LEVEL RESULTS.TOOK 4H2S IN JC:H2 GEOG,H2 PHY,H2 CHEM,H2 MATH

PRELIMS:
H2 GEOG:D
H2CHEM:C
H2 MATH:D
H2 PHY:C

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2009-02-23T15:49:00.000+08:00

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2009-02-23T15:40:00.002+08:00

I know all along i'm very headstrong and determined to do things my way.but never once have i felt so under appreciated.Does it mean that jus coz i am not as tolerant i'm wrong?

people expect so much from us or they will review my contract.i can't be bothered less.coz i've alrdy given up

i dun tink i've done anything wrong jus that i'm a little hot tempered but then i always flare up for a reason.but i dun like being viewed as being not adequate enuff coz it pisses me off when i come back to see my sch in more mayhem than originally.it was so much more ordered the last time. and besides,even if i'm considered not good enuff,then those who think that i'm not being tolerant enuff must be mentally in capacitated.Coz i tink at least i've got the sense to stand up for wat i believe in.i'm not gonna give way jus coz some pp think i'm being too intolerant or inadequate or anything else.

there's a limit for everyone's temper.and i'm quite pissed off with the discipline now.i mean seriously,no one was so nice to us when we were studying here.

and even the crop of students have changed.So now either i bear with it and grin or i do things my way like i've always done.

i dun think i'm being too much everything i do is when someone provokes me.mayb i shld rein my temper in but its time i stop being criticised coz those who are criticizing are no better than me.or in fact worse.

2009-02-17T09:20:00.002+08:00

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2009-02-12T16:22:00.000+08:00

sorry bout previous post.was v angry

2009-02-12T14:41:00.002+08:00

I tink fat vulgar ah bengs shldn't be allowed in sch.I mean tell me wats e purpose of accepting some losers that only watses their parents money and only noe how to spew vulgarities.and besides,e proper way is to button up the uniform not to show their ugly useless blob of fats to people.as if anyone will want to see it.wat a loser...

but lets move on to brighter news other than fat losers.....p.s.sec 1 and 2 classes,it isn't refering to u=)

i realised something,i hate people to interrupt my lessons or i'll shout until the whole corridor can hear.i esp hate it when losers try to act big but the moment the discipline teacher or our principal turns up,they cower like shit.its such a disgrace to our brilliant sch name

anw,i tink swimming makes e shoulders bigger coz i might be turning into a royal boulder soon=)like yes!!!!!finally,i'm remotely fit.hahahahaha...

tmr is the lightest work load.like yes!!!!hahahaha

2009-02-11T10:30:00.002+08:00

Why AM I SO ANGRY?
angry that some classes are so out of hand but i'm not allowed to give them capital punishment?
angry that parents now cant discipline their kids to even give teachers some basic respect?

why am i behaving like a baby sitter?why am i being forced to keep these pp in line even tho i'm being paid jus to teach?

i cant help but think that moe is being too much or in fact even e parents.we're not allowed to use capital punishment on kids.but how?how are we going to control them?ask them to stand?please...they aren't even afraid of that.parents can only complain abt teachers being too much being too substandard.i would love to see them try to control a class of 40 hyperactive kids.

i'm angry.coz some pp spoil their kids.i'm angry.coz this task of babysitting kids is delegated to me.i dun blame them for wanting to play.which kid wouldn't?

but it pisses me off when they refuse to listen even after i ask them to return to their seats twice.yes,i walked out on them.but i cant help but wonder was i exactly the same as them?throwing my royal tantrum?

yes,i said they are so immature and hurtful.but aren't i e same by doing that?
but then i ask myself.if they give me attitude why shldn't i give it back to them?i'm not being paid to be a punch bag.i try so hard to help them but now,i tink its beta to jus ignore them.at least i wont get disappointed

2009-02-05T08:08:00.002+08:00

hello!
i'm back
loads have happened but nothing much to say
haha

me and kiam went swimming that time....den we went to sengkang pool
u noe how FREAKING big izzit?its like HUGE!!!!!!!and the slides are WHOO! haha
kiam was such a scaredy cat la.she didn't dare try e biggest twisting tube! but seriously,its kinda scary coz i literally flew off my ass while sliding down...goodness noe how that managed to happen! but haha,its scary coz u fly in e air
and its totally scary

well,anw,i started getting panic attacks recently about Alevels
i'm really terrified sick man
imagine if i dun get A for anything.i'll jus commit suicide la....
i'm tinking of taking e day off for e day after and before results day.oso on results day too.haha
i cant teach if i'm so nervous ya
day before is to calm my nerves
day after is to cry my eyes out or celebrate...HAHA

well,clases is as usual rowdy...sometimes i get so foul tempered.

i mean how can i teach if half of 3b is standing up and staring outta e window

like please,there's no pretty gals anyway....and 1b i swear is getting naughtier.i wonder if one of my favorite classes are changing...=(its sad!!!!

haha.1d gave us e bears and guess wat me and kim do?

i named mine charcoal and kim's powder.put it together,wat does it give?CHARCOAL POWDER!!!ahahahahaha.omg that's so lame.

oh did i mention e rejected love toy?

it has a interesting history...=)

2009-01-19T16:31:00.002+08:00

I realised something...my blog is so dead now...tats prob coz i'm so busy with schoolwork..as a TEACHER!!!!HAHAHAHA

u wont believe it but i'm like some teacher lei...omg.like totally uncomprehensible=(
i'm teaching all NA and NT save for one express class...and they are sooooooooooooo................
sigh

anw,guess wat?i'm teaching eng,geog hist and ss!!!hahahaha

kinda weird ya?coz i've never been the creme de la creme whe it comes to these subjs...

i miss nyjc la.its so fun can
u can jus go sch slack sleep and the onus is on u to study and of coz since we're so responsible,we do eventually!!!

i miss e food the uniform and all lor.u noe its so mind wrecking to gotta decide wat to wear everyday?its horrible...coz there's a strict qouta to follow and u worry if ur students say u're looking like some horrible hag-.-"they shld jus have uni for teachers...=)save e e trouble and extra cash i gotta fork out...

work is fun sometimes coz of e sec 1s they are soooooooooooooo cute man!!!!
they actually played rugby and volleyball with us.and there was this kid thats super hilarios coz he doesn't noe how to play vball and he ends up looking like a ballerina when he attempt to hit the ball...HHAHAHAH

one big thing i feel i've traded is my carefree self i guess?as a teacher,u cant say vulgarities and must act regal all the time.it gets quite nauseating aft awhile ya?
we cant even wear jeans...i feel as though my youth is sipping away..and i miss sch so much i jus wished there's 3 yrs in jc.its so carefree to see your frenz everyday...stay back for some muddy training...

yea it does hurt when there's loads of work and exams are sooooooo tough(rather i dun bother putting effort) and imagine how horrifying to realise u're not that good in training...

but i tink its really carefree than now=(

now,i cant even go out with my frenz coz their shift is so conflicting...mayb that's e reason i feel we're drifting apart...as tho i dun really fit anymore.and sometimes its worse coz they neglect to tell ya something by accident,but its so much more hurting...but then again,if we are really gd frenz,this wont be happening yea?

speaking of which,i tink i'm SOOOOO FAT!!!! my students cant stop saying i'm fat can-.-"like ya ya,i get it man...

i'll update some oth day!ciao!!!

2008-12-26T13:36:00.002+08:00

HELLO!!!
MERRY XMAS!

i've got some serious updating to do on my blog

firstly,milkmaids.
honestly it was a very very easy job
we jus gotta wear e costume and give out milk to e vips
den collect back e empty glasses.
and den follow them to go eat free food
and finally,a 90 bucks paycheck
now more abt that costume shop.
i tink e guy that make up e costume is seriously GAY
he wears a v nice dress up but walks ard in CLOGS
like are u kidding me?
i tot he didn't speak chinese coz he has this weird accent
plus he look weird?
hahaha
den i ask him if he speak chinese and he say yes.
damn malu

KL TRIP
whooo! wat a gr8 trip
all i ever did on e trip is to eat sleep and shop
gr8 recovery trip
except i suffered from jet lag
day 1 was ok,but i felt really exhausted
plus we walked like forever to reach our rented apartment
u would guess a apartment was worse standard than a hotel?actually,i tink its beta u noe,plus we paid less
and we took m'sia's public transport...i tink we really blended in as malaysians coz pp try to sell us calenders and broadband connection
wished my phone was working tho
i couldn't contact Shaun at all...
would have loved to mit him there
anw,food there is really cheap
let me give u an idea
we ate,lala in soup,fried lala,fried kangkong,sweet and sour pork,chicken wings,hokkien mee
and it comes up to RM 60 for e 4 of us
street food is really best there,s'pore can never compare
even restaurents were gentle on our budget
makes this trip immensely satiating our tastebuds
haha
will hope to go back there
clothes there are likewise cheaper
and they have really good designs too
i really enjoyed shopping coz their shopping malls are at least 4 times the size of any of ours
esp mid valley mall in kl

Xmas dinner at my sis house

when i went there,i was like some ravaging beast
was freaking hungry can
i jus devoured an entire turkey wing
and several sausages went e same way
beef looks extremely tempting except,i dont eat beef
haha
ended up staying overnite
pity susan ate so little,i tink he's terrified coz my parents are there
hahaha
mit the parents session
LOL

2008-12-23T15:39:00.000+08:00

tis time round,i've got a reason to be mad.
as of now,everything is over.2 yrs of frenship is nothing to me anymore.
see,you get wat u deserve.
happy now?

smiles!

2008-12-13T18:35:00.002+08:00

hello!!!
firstly,i got e job as e milk maid!!
like wow yea?
anw...back to daily life
i've been in a black black mood for e past few days...and when jessica came to work today,she totally lifted me up from my moodiness !!!
she was sooo freaking cheerful,i cant help but be cheered up as well...must have been e first time i actually really laughed this week!!!lol
2 days before went to eat sumo house with susan!!!
i've totally forgotten how freaking cheap sumo house is la...was really stuffed!!!
funny,we argued e very next day.tink he deserve it xia...give me extra stress only
anw tink i'm suffering from PMS
post menstrual syndrome
jus got very easily rilled up and angry
so ya...watch out pp!!!

so excited bout kl!!!
can jus go and eat and shop like helll!!!!!
whoo!!food 's like my vitamin or something
feel like i'm deprived of it!!!

2008-12-05T12:23:00.004+08:00

Your dating personality profile:

Athletic - Physical fitness is one of your priorities. You find the time to work athletic pursuits into your schedule. You enjoy being active.
Stylish - You do not lack for fashion sense. Style matters. You wouldn't want to be seen with someone who doesn't care about his appearance.
Funny - You laugh often. People never accuse you of lacking a sense of humor. You don't take yourself too seriously.

Your Top Ten Traits

1. Athletic
2. Stylish
3. Funny
4. Traditional
5. Adventurous
6. Conservative
7. Sensual
8. Wealthy/Ambitious
9. Romantic
10. Intellectual

Your date match profile:

Athletic - You aren't looking for a couch potato. You seek someone who is active and who keeps his body in top shape.
Funny - You consider a good sense of humor a major necessity in a date. If his jokes make you laugh, he has won your heart.
Stylish - You cannot put up with someone who is lacking in style. You want an original, someone with flare, someone with good taste.

Your Top Ten Match Traits

1. Athletic
2. Funny
3. Stylish
4. Practical
5. Traditional
6. Adventurous
7. Romantic
8. Wealthy/Ambitious
9. Outgoing
10. Sensual

Take the Dating Profile Quiz at Would I Date You

HELLO pp!!!! guess wat?i jus got a job offer from my sis tat pays 50 bucks if i work for an hour!!!YEY!!!hahaha all i gotta do is wear a milk maid costume and give out flyers!HAHAHA whoo hoo!!!!

2008-12-04T12:00:00.008+08:00

OMG

prom was great i guess?

e emcee was freaking funny coz he actually asked for e most no. of guys with hairy legs and big tummies to run onstage!was really hilarious to see e sch guys rushing on stage la!
erm,the food was quite bad u noe?barely worth our $ la...but its fun coz u see ur frenz like u nvr see them before!its like,with make up and all,u cant really recognise them so its kinda crazy! and everyone looked really really good!

guess who's e prom queen and king?

queen is xian tse (who's rumoured to be les) and king is some unknown guy or coz he dressed up i cant recognise.HAHA

aft all e photo taking and all,i would really love to upload e pics except i dun have e camera cable with me!!!

i tink e make up artist did a great job in making me look good but honestly,i'm really jus average looking...there's alot of pretty gals in my sch u noe?i was like WAH!!!!!(ok i'm not a buaya k?!)

i got this huge bump at e tummy in e photos coz i was like full?so u can see clearly,which photos are taken before dinner and which are after dinner!!!!HAHA

omg saw so much nice pp la!!!

anw,aft prom, we went to cine and walked all e way there to decide not to watch any movie!haha...den its back to e hotel and erm...i got a little outta hand...guess i drank too much.anw,sorry zul for throwing water at u ,sorry cheryl for being rude to ur frenz and paisei to pp in e room k?i wasn't exactly nice when i'm drunk...anw,pictures time!

2008-11-19T09:31:00.002+08:00

man!!!!!!!!!!!! was so tired!

yester,i met susan to watch madagascar but its kinda funny!!!! coz e part where e fat hippo kinda killed e smaller creatures by stepping over them is soooooooooo hilarious.

anw,i tink we made a big mess when we fought over popcorn...and worse still,i hafta sit in that mess!!!!!!!!

den aft tat its off to mit my boss at changi!he.was.late. tsk...scare me somemore...thought i was gonna be late...but den he's chinese!!! i thought he's indian coz his name is nan...

den aft looking ard at our jobs area,we're pretty wowed by e idea tat
A) we're supposed to take care of little kids at e train station if their parents have more than one kid
B)we hafta run aft e train to ensure e driver doesn't knock into any stuff from e surrounding stores

kinda cool huh?

anw,aft tat we went shopping!!!!(me and wendy...despite confusion on whether to go or not!)spent like ages finding a nice pair of jeans...

talking bout which,tis sun i'll be working again! yey!two diff events...i tink i'm a workaholic! i jus loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee working! hahahah...yey!

and ya,i'm taking my braces off today!

2008-11-14T18:09:00.002+08:00

i'm feeling terrible now.
i jus screwed up chem pp 1 and my A jus flew away.
19 over 40.how comforting can it get?
i'm so demoralised now.i jus feel like crying.
what a motherfucking shit i'm in now.fuck fuck fuck.
so fucking pissed with myself
i could have got an A.why did i fucked up myself?
izzit coz i studied with pp and got distracted?
i've practised so fucking hard for chem and this happens.
i'm going my own way from now on.
no relationships are gonna hold me back anymore.i'm sick and tired of doing badly.
stop freaking demanding things from me and affecting me.
i've got my own life,esp during exams.

2008-11-07T19:16:00.003+08:00

ok!!!guessc what???i got a job lobang from my sis colleague!!! hope i can get it!!!it pays pretty well for a part time job tho i hafta work everyday even on sat and sun...but i really hope i can get it coz i cant make it for 6 days coz of dental and all...so yupp hope i can get it!

wendy is applying for a similar job and i hope she gets it too!!! so i can have company...zul's applying to be santa andomg...ZUL U GOTTA SHOW ME THAT PHOTO!!!!!

hahaha

my cousin's most prob working too...hopes he works somewhere along e same line!!!haven't seen him for ages man...

anw,i thought math pp2 was quite manageable...wat a relief! i thought an A for math is totally outta reach but now its within reach..

hmmm...regarding IT ,i decided not to bother about anything not worth much bahx...u wouldn't believe it! i was so good mood yester (in e morn only k?!)i actually wasn't angry with it anymore...and so i was all ready to forgive and foerget but unfortunately seems like someone had attitude so ok lor,i decided not to waste my time on IT...i got plenty much beta attitude frenz...and plus since IT thinks its so popular and all,guess it doesn't need my frendship too! see,8i wasn't e mean one!HAHA...

yester nite went to watch quantum of solace...some parts was funny in a dark humour sorta way...and some parts was jus missing! i still din noe wats QUANTUM aft e movie(ok i noe e phy definition k?!)boy...feel so shagged today,i jus went to sleep like some pig...

2008-11-07T19:16:00.002+08:00

sometimes it really pisses me when someone is obviously in the wrong but jus refuses to admit it.it always say that pp are so mean to it and all...den wat about it?

it itself is such a pain in e ass sometimes...making use of pp to carry its books.well,guess wat? pp like us are doing tis as frens and it doesn't mean that it is expected that we give in to IT all the time.

IT is forever late and still dare grumble when pp turn up slightly late.IT even forget that it had a appointment with me once and still dare to act as tho nothing happen.IT totally ps me and i didn't yell at IT is considered very good alrdy.and now IT still got e guts to tell me IT didn't do anything wrong.

is IT dumb or wat?IT has such a *toot* bad attitude and still dares say i'm petty.IT p.s me so goddamn many times and still dare say i'm petty.pp ps IT once only IT makes a mountain outta a molehill so why cant i do the same?

REASON IS...ITS *TOOT* SPOILT! of coz spoilt brats get to continue in their spoilt way.after putting up with IT for so long,i'm really quite sick and tired of ITs bad attitude.

forever late.

forever forgeting appointments with me.

forever never admitting ITs wrong.

give me one good reason why i cant get angry and jus f***ing blow this useless frenship off.i'm not a fren wat...jus a maid to IT.

well not anymore,IT can go find a new maid and i'm not giving in till i hear a SORRY...and even then its subjected to my mood.i'm f***ing pissed

if IT even bloody considers me a fren,it'll have the decency to say sorry.but no...so IT can go find all e maids in e world but i dun care how close we were,THIS IS THE LAST STRAW.

and note,its not even worthy to be called human.call me petty or wateva.but if u've been putting up with all e crap,u'll get pissed as well.so ya! go figure it out.

2008-11-06T11:58:00.002+08:00

wats the first thing anyone should say after offending someone?its e word SORRY.

in my opinion,those who dont have the guts to say that or think too highly of themselves to say that,are totally hopeless.coz they are so insincere.

and plus they make e offended person's blood boil even more

so a nonchalant "i din mean it.dun b e too offended." is not gonna cut it...

OK!!! MOVING ON TO THE HIGHLIGHTS!!!!!!!!

my sis sponsored me a trip to kl in dec jus to eat and shop!!!! whoo hoo!!!! she say i work v hard for As so i'm entitled to this!!!YEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAHAHA!

chem today was pretty ok but i made alot of careless mistake...

zul said i'll prob get e same marks as him and haziq.but honestly,i wasn't too pleased to hear that la...i mean all along i scored beta than them so getting e same score as them is not very comforting yea?! SORRY ZUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DUN GET ANGRY!!!!!!!!!

its jus that when u beat someone all along,u jus dun wanna lose to them

As here i come!!!!!!!!!

2008-11-05T10:09:00.002+08:00

As was rtotally bazoo

i guess i was too tired from having 4 papers cramped in two days.its so unfair to us la

u noe i was so tired i mixed up the physics formula?

i've never done that before.i tink i'm screwed for physics

2008-10-25T18:01:00.002+08:00

STRESSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

u noe A's is coming???i'm getting really scared jus tinking of it...

i've been doing papers and all but i doubt i can do well coz its sooo hard to cope with 4H2s...now i noe why oths drop their 4 H2s...

geog takes up a uber chunk of time coz well...it has alot of content...

been doing papers consulting and reading but somehow,i feel so lost still!!! mr ng did say my gp is reasonable...he said its ard e same standard as wei kok but its almost impossible la...wei kok got like ...erm...A for gp???

haha...said i needed to work on sentence structuring...NO TIME!!!!!!!!!!! i must get an A for Gp COZ LIKE MY WHOLE FAMILY ENG IS VERY VERY GOOD!!!

stressful isn't it?

remem last yr,when i tried to drop so i could stay in my class,the teacher told me not to coz i'll regret it...
put up with a yr of misery just for my h2s and i'm sure as hell not gonna give up!

told me a C at prelims will give me an A at a levels if i work hard...i only got 2 Cs but u noe wat,lets make it 4 As coz of how much i went thru jus to keep my 4h2s.

mug like crazy for promos
watching my grandma on her deathbed and yet cant see her often
felt like jus giving up but yet i cant
den hafta change class
shocked beyond words
got treated as an out cast jus coz i voice my displeasure

i went thru everything not for fun.went thru everything for IT!now it'll jus hafta repay all my sacrifices.TOO BAD!i'm sick of having no returns.i want my returns now!and it sure as hell be a profit!

2008-10-21T17:48:00.003+08:00

HELLO!!!!

my mood is good today!!!!

except for a dent by some mama j1s

see,we were studying in a classroom and e j1s asked if they can share...so i said ok lor...

but they were really noisy u noe and talking about everything like ben and jerry's except pw...

and plus there's tis guy sitting on e tcher's tabl;e screaming like some scarecrow so its really NOISY!me and susan were lik" ya we noe u have no where to go for pw so u study with us but can u pls be quiet?" and we reallly tolerated until......................

SUSAN EXPLODED AND YELL AT THEM!

amazing eh?imagine,susan yelled first!his tolerance level is usually ten times of mine!and i was thinking tat i'll surely explode first...way to go susan!!!

and u noe those j1s were quite a bunch of liars u noe-.-" they told their teacher their noise level was quite low...(how low can it get when everyone's talking bout ben and jerry's and one guy was yelling away like some scarecrow?)

and the teacher had the guts to tell us they have more rite to the classroom coz its their ct room...now where in our rules book of nyjc did that appeared?

mayb i can say" this was my ct room last yr so i have more right than them to this room coz my right for this room is accumulated from 2 yrs and they only had 1 yr of accumulation."

is that rite?hope mr kwek hears this arguement man...

those students were so noisy,they din have basic courtesy to shut up lei

which aspect of pw entails ben and jerry's huh@@@@!!!!!!

and the tcher can use such a stupid arguement such as right due to ct classroom to lecture us...seriously,i tink both of them nid some spanking

but susan,u're really quite wrong to shout u noe??HAHAHA...tho they kinda deserved it...hmmmmmmmmmm

2008-10-21T17:48:00.002+08:00

Some pp shld jus mind their own business and not pass stupid comments when they are not invited to be part of the conversation.

kindly do not act as tho u have a rite to say me when u are clearly an outcast,mr u-tink-u-know-it-all.

no idea who i'm talking about?hint:its not someone i'm close to.and he irritated me enuff for today.

aaaaaaaaaaargh

2008-10-14T18:15:00.005+08:00

HELLO!!!!i'm back!!!!!!!!

ok here are the updates from our cam whoring! wat a pity i gotta leave early!!!!they had so much fun at e lunch la!!!!!must organise another one k?!so we can cam whore tgt!!!! and oh ya...jus realised i din take pics with any of the touch ruggers!!!!!!!!!!HAHAHAHA

and man...really wished i was there!now i'm like super addicted to guitar heros la!!!! thank god i dun see eddy everyday or i'll be checked into a addict centre for GUITAR HEROS! and i improved loads k?! now i can tackle hard standards alrdy!!!!

speaking of which...i got my early bdae present from wendy and nisha alrdy!!!!THANKS GUYS!!!!erm...it was er...surprising!hahaha...finallly got e spongebob garments tat i wanted!YEY!!!! now i noe why thy're so excited to give me my bdae present!

i got my third soft toy from susan alrdy!i must say,i tink susan v rich,can buy me alot of soft toys...and WHRE'S MY MANGA???!!!!

hahaha

i tink i love to camwhore alot...HAHAHA but cant help it camwhoring is just so fun!!!!

oh YA!!!!my bdae is on............................................26TH NOV!!!!!!remember hor!(presents are expected without a doubt!)HAHAHAHAHA

2008-10-12T13:37:00.002+08:00

lol...loads have happened recently and seriously,i've never been happier!

shakira and angela joined us for graduation ceremony that time and boy! i gottas admit i missed them!!!!haven't seeen them in dunno how many blue moons!we had fun for awhile...must have been e first time we were all reunited aft like almost a yr!makes me kinda wished that they hadn't retained and i hadn't switched class!HAHAHAHA

speaking of which,someone asked me why i stopped blogging abt my new class...izzit coz i'm ok with them le?er...actually no.jus tat i tink they're not worth my time.in oth words,they're worthless to me except for a few i consider as my frens!hahaha

anw,we went to take loads of fun pics ard sch aft graduation ceremony!too bad i gotta leave early to see my back doctor!guess wat?now i only need to take x rays once every two years! and e doctor said my back surgery was one of the finset works of prof wong coz everything is perfectly in place...hahaha.i'm such a perfect medical specimen-.-"

jus learned threading from cheryll!!!waaaa,i let her experiment on my moustache(ok,gals have practically no moustache) and it HURTS!!!!!(must be coz she didn't learn properly...prob eating and learning at e same time so technique not as polished...hmmmm....)and u wouldn't believe where we tried out...at e handicapped toilet!so obscene rite?like two gals----one screaming the oth quiet...erm...

den guess wat?got pp outside there waiting aft awhile.! and we contemplated hiding in those small crevices or wetting my skirt and saying she help me wash my skirt stain!was so embarrassing when we two walked out and so uncomfy with a wet skirt on my ass la!lik omg...who's fault izzit huh?! who's e one suggesting handicap toilet??? CHERYLL!

but i tink i was worse coz u could see e chunk of hair from hafiz arm when i tried on him!!!!!
bet he was trying not to scream!ahahahahahah

that reminds me...i tink cheryll is so childish(actually so am i HAHAH) coz she loves to do lame stuff...hear that cheryll???(hope she's reading this post...HAHAHAH)

feel like going gym but feel so lazy to even move!

2008-10-01T10:57:00.003+08:00

HAHAHAHA

got loads to tell ya guys babe!!!!but i tink...I FORGOT AGAIN!!!! ok...after some adjustments,i tink my math was pushed up to a D!!! so i got...

GP:D

MATH:D

CHEM:D

PHY:D

anw...was staying back with syabil joel yingxi and all when i realised something!!!!i'm linked to all of them!!!see,yingxi is rachel's fren so i noe her and joel is my new classmate and syabil is my old classmate!and incidentally,all of them 3 came from sengkang sec!!!!HAHAHA

lemme ask u guys...am i very throw face?i tink i am lei...u noe that time me and joel went to eat dinner?it was bad...i poured light soya sauce on my rice coz i thought it was dark soya sauce...ended up being so salty i feel as tho i'm eating salt!!!(low class salt somemore)

i can bet i looked like some old woman aft tat with such a shriveled mouth...joel so mean la!!! he keep laughing at me!but HAHA!!!he got diarhoea aft that coz he ate some polluted beancurd(mayb got melanine)

HAHAHA...see?say wrong stuff to miss hot babe here...

oh ya.i jus realised that nico rosberg is actually VERY HOT!!! he's some F1 williams driver who came in second...we managed to get his autograph and pic eh!!!!lik wow rite???!!!!! he's so hot!!!!!we paid a high price tho...i skipped chem lect la!!! its e first time we are so reluctant to skip lect lei...coz As are coming...see i'm so serious now

but i tink he's balding tho he's so OMG HOT!!!! ok see,he has this pinkish patch on his head...so mayb we can intro him yun nam if he's staying here any longer!!!see,such a pro active singaporean...HAHAHAHA

speaking of which i went to stevenlim's blog which left me speechless coz its pretty...erm..CMI la.
and i jus realised something too!!!! cheryll is soooo childish...u noe we were blowing bubblegum in sch?and then she started to compare her bubble size with mine and we keep trying to blow bigger bubbles(OF COZ I WON LA...)then she said mine are v small so i told her,my mouth is big that's why the bubbles are small as compared to my mouth...and so we started comparing our mouth size using our rulers...OK WAIT.that's so dumb!!!!

anw,she's started laming ard and say that she'll take pics of me when i blow a bubble...of coz, being incredible lamers,we did jus tat.and guess wat?i found out i looked like a baboon from side view.

well,there's been some battlefield between some of my frenz so i'm quite glad when someone managed to resolve it(no more on tentahooks!)i may agree with some points brought up but on the other hand,i pity the target.i noe mayb he/she deserves what she got but then he/she doesn't have much backing up so ya...lets all be kinder k?(i'm scared of being the middleman)

anw,i really hope i can get 2As or 3As at least for As la.i noe its asking alot but i've always been competitive tho i was pretty dormant during JC.also,taking 4H2s means its practically impossible...soooo................

and ya,blocking out cheryll from the pic with nico rosberg makes it looks so much more attractive...HEHEHEHE

2008-09-25T19:16:00.002+08:00

my mood improved loads aft i got back GP and PHY!!!!

phy i got C and GP i got D...which was pretty good and unexpected la...

was so unhappy i bombed like that for prelims but then if i want to win someone i really dont like(thats super mugger+unattractive+ irritating+bad attitude) i gotta work hard...must really work hard!!! cant lose to him/her...

i really hate losing u noe???i've come to terms with my unexpected crash from cloud nine(over my mids) and so i'm really gonna start working hard...admittedly i'm still sleeping in class and yawning but i've tried to eliminate it thoroughly.i now bring work to sch to do during my long breaks( which are almost none?)

but i still feel pretty ok despite falling from my mighty perch...its quite remarkable i can pass 3 of my 4h2s when oths are suffering with 3h2s...

2008-09-22T20:01:00.003+08:00

E for math.D for chem.bloody paper2 for math pulled me down.

phy wasn't very encouraging.i tink i bombed as well.i'm inconsolable.so disappointed in myself..all e times i'm watching anime,shld i be studying instead?A's are near.so angry with myself now.

my dad heard e door slam jus now.guess he doesn't dare make any snide comments on my results or i'll jus walk straight out.

so goddamn pissed with myself.i thought i'm a bloody top student?why now i'm scoring so badly?if i can get straight A1s for prelims for O's why now prelims liddat?too ashamed to face myself.

missed by a mark to C for chem.missed by a mark to D for math.

totally inconsolable.

2008-09-22T20:01:00.002+08:00

HAHAHA

jus went cycling today!!!!first part was a little bumpy coz i keep stopping and had a hard time starting again...but it was quite bad ard a curve coz i jus fell and e bike kinda crush me i tink??was damn pain coz e toe split along one line and it really looks as tho e chunk of flesh will fall off...

my right shin has awful bruises and scars coz it hurts like hell...eddy played nurse and tried to help me wash...but sadly,...

I ENDED UP ROARING IN PAIN?!!!!

then i was really so scared of e pain i felt like crying but i cant la...but e blood and all scares me like shit...kinda reminds me abt that time e blood from my wound soaked my entire socks red...

ya i noe its stupid but i'm jus a teensy bit scared of pain...HAHAHA

that wasn't so bad and somehow my cycling kinda improved towards e end till i can actually cycle till changi airport!(well,i cheated and stoped to u-turn before reaching coz i was damn tired)

somehow my tummy muscles hurts like shit but strangely,qiujing's doesn't!!!must be something wrong with my body...hmmmm

i really hated e part where i go over twigs and all coz it bumps and my ass jus went*ouch!*...my skills aren't high enuff for me to stand while biking la!!!!but i wont give up!!! i must be as good as cycling as e rest!so i must work hard!HAHAHA

stupid nikhil and eddy played a bet to see if i'll crash again-,-"(baka!!!)

den i'm sorry i let eddy down coz it happened like this.....

there's this super narrow bridge and i was riding across and then!!!from e oth side oso got pp!!!!so i tried to squeeze as close to e side and guess wat???i crashed!!!coz my handlebars hit e side...

e guy who kinda caused my crash din even say sorry la!or even ask if i'm ok..wat a f******* asshole!haha...ok,mayb i'm jus pissed coz i got a bruise e size of a tennis ball on my shin..

hurts so much i almost cried...but i tried to control!and i DIDN'T! hahahaha

so fast forward to e end where syabil was complaining his legs hurt and nik was screaming his ass hurts...felt so bad for eddy and syabil coz they cant eat or drink aft such a hectic exercise and can only look at us...geezzzzz

susan came to fetch me home and man...we went to play for softtoys at e cathing machine!wasted 6 bucks before we finally caught one(e lady manning it help us cheat by putting it near e hole!)HAHAHA

but it was flawed!!!shld have looked closely at e toy i chose to put near e hole!!!darn...

poor susan gotta take it home to make it PERFECT before i would play with it...so susan giving me tmr!!!

2008-09-19T19:36:00.002+08:00

HAHAHA

went out to play yesterday?!!!! finally prelims are over!!! those hair tearing days are over!!!hahaha

went to watch mamamia .which was funny!!!coz the actors were quite funny! esp when u compare their past looks and present looks!HAHAHAHAHA!!!man...totally bullied nikhil to help me play for a doraemon softtoy!its those catching games la....

sadly,aft spending 5 bucks or more(i forgot)i still haven't gotten my stitch toy/elmo/doraemon toy...SEE LA! NIKHILS FAULT!!!!!hahaha...jus joking...its not his fault la

went to play pool which was a total disaster coz i totally was WAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYY off form or jus plain lousy!ahahahaha...we switched to bowling aft that but coz i pa jiao and cant aim properly,my ball keep hitting long kang...ended up with e third highest score(sounds beta than e second lowest score)

syabil got e lowest!!!aiyo...dragonboat eh???how can lose to geek nikhil,si wen qiujing and touch rug cass?!!!!hahahaha

den played pool AGAIN!!! cheryll was sooooooooooo uptight jus coz we're sneaking booze in to e pool area...nik treated us vodka,barcadi and beer...i jus soooooooooooo hate the taste of beer!its so gross coz it reminds me of cigarettes and mayb its jus coz i used to drinking wine or champagne instead...vodka was ok tho it smelt like medicine,and tasted like medicine!

lol...no wonder nik bought it...coz he's sick and needs 'medicine'

cheryll was damn paranoid about pp spiking our drinks and nik damn irritating coz he said the person spike oso got no gains(implying that we aren't good looking)dots...HAHAHA...seriously,i tink cheryll shld go be nun le.!!!hahaha suit her nun-ny image!

funny huh our choices?i started out with vodka but figured i like barcardi more so i took e bottle of barcardi,nik took vodka and cheryll took her disgusting tiger beer!HAHAHAHA...i could have swor ncheryll got drunk la...even syabil said she turned red like some tomato(imagine from oreo to tomato...big diff hor?!) and she was so blur!!!hehehehe...i shld spike her drinks next time...or mayb not!later she drunk i gotta drag her and her tauhuay butt home eh!!!

lol...tink i saw nicholas from my sec sch eh!!!e basketball guy...but i cant really recog him coz mayb he looks damn diff and i kinda wasn't too sure enuff to say hi...
he waved la,(which is good,means i do noe e person!and mayb its nicholas)but i was damn blur and i jus went"eh-eh-eh" and waved back...

mamamia is funny yet long so my butt was like e size of some life-boat la...i bet i needed some butt stretches lor...haix

looks like picnic is cancelled coz there's too little pp(alot are fasting)and i'm wondering if i shld go out play or jus slack at home...i swear i need exercise but i'm jus too lazy!!!

2008-09-16T12:16:00.002+08:00

ok!!! i'm back!

last sat was a total nigtmare but i really dun wanna talk about it...

anw,ended up lugging books to changi airport to study with susan overnite but guess wat??halfway thru our dilligent mugging we decided to go watch movie...dots rite?but it was really super monotonous la!
so ended up watching midnite movie...wall-e is sooooo cute la! eva e robot looks way hotter than wall-e...which shows that most of e time,girlfrens are hotter than their boyfrens!HAHAHAHA

then aft that jus went on mugging at mac tho i keep playing games and all...by 4am,i was like dying alrdy and nothing can go in...so i was all sleepy(ay i woke up at 7am on sat k?!)and throwing tantrums coz e bus didn't come on time...poor susan was trying to keep me quiet when i started getting agitated coz i was very tired!hahaha...I'M SUCH A BRAT?!

went home slept for 3 hrs before getting chased out again...den went sis home to study....stupid renovation was so noisy,the two of us ended up sitting outside upstairs neighbours door waiting to hear e drilling( we wanted to catch them redhanded and scold them la!)

ended up not studying and busy watching anime...i swear my bro-in-law is soooo good(coz i kope his anime watch)

sis wanted to cook and its a total disaster coz both of us are noobs at cooking...i scrub e potatoes till their skin came off and i happily told my sis it was mud...=.="

HAHAHAHA! got a huge scolding la!den aft that had to fry bacon but my sis scared of e flying oil so pushed e job to me!bleah,....ended up standing 1m away from e wok coz i was very scared too! HAHAHAHA

macoroni cheese was a total disaster coz we din noe why our macaroni taste soooo....eeeew.and its a prepacked mixture too! supposedly for noobs like us but ended up we noobs still cant make proper food!HAHAHA.

went for some temple dinner yester and its fascinating...i've never been to a temple or church before u noe?food was great~!(ok i'm a glutton) and my bro-in-law younger bro and mom sat with us....jus realised my bro-in-law family got a heredity centre parting for their hair which honestly,looks 1970s...HAHAHAHA but they're guys so nvm...wat for look so nice rite?their jus guys wat

ended up drinking too much and slightly unstable tho i was still sober!mandy said i was a pampered kid coz i wanted take taxi~-( but cant expect me take bus when i'm half drunk rite?HAHAHA

2008-09-10T19:07:00.002+08:00

chem was a total disaster la! totally screwed up everything i studied for...so demoralisiing...

i thought i had it in my palm but ended up clutching jus air

geog was terrible too...i totally let 16 marks fly away coz i did a ques i didn't study on...wats e diff btwn flood management and channel management?hard to define...

jus felt that i got no frenz today...why?its not coz i'm lonely...or no one to acc me..but jus tat...i cant help but wonder if pp really take me as their fren or jus some fair weather kite to play with as and when they want to?

i wish blogger got password enabled post...so i can jus rant and let no one else see.

my uncle was diagnose with cancer jus last week.only 6 more months to live...i noe my cousin is miserable but i cant do anything.i'm not a docter.i'm not rich...i cant buy anyone time..if i can,i will buy my grandma and uncle time..so my mom will never have to fell sad everytime she tink of grandma...so tat my cousin will be happy like he was.

i really wish i can do something.

anything

boy i've been seeing alot of deaths huh?first my dad was on e verge of death...miracle he survived,that's wat e doc said.and i hafts go thru o level with the worry my dad cant make it.

then grandma death last yr.

and now these.

me a brat? told u...i'm not.i'm stronger than u are.stop acting pathetic,u disgusting gal.i really dislike her.but then u'll never noe who i'm talking about...mayb i'm jus scolding myself and keeping myself in one piece.who noes?

i'm strong.if i cant go thru such trauma with o levels and not shed a tear,i'm jus as strong now.who ever doubting me,jus shut up.

2008-09-06T10:40:00.002+08:00

heyy!!!! i'm back!!! i jus remembered something...i did a stress test using eddie's phone and i got 64% stresseed!!!! lowest amongst everyone else...

the test got many sections---one part where they put dice in cups and rearrange it and ask u to guess which cup is e dice in...---bubbles with numbers--arranging of numbers from smallest to biggest...i tink thats all i can remember! HAHAHAHA...

well,i've cooled down from yester where i was in a extremely foul mood...but today i got another foul mood incident...but e person involved is not worth writing abt so nvm...

u noe,there's the wonders of PMS u noe???? u get really bad mood and easily irritated and pimples pop up like mini volcanoes...

and best of all,u dun even noe why u're so pissed over little things...and that's how i'm like now...i got all pissed with someone yester even tho she did seem sorry and i got agitated over stupid stuff not worth writing abt...gosh...when will this PMS end?????

i jus saw on kids central that there's something called a pokemon board game!!! hahahaha...so funny...can u imagine seeing all e weird creatures as ur playing pieces?and maybe e dice is a pokeball....

mayb i shld work as a game designer....looks more relaxing than engineers!hahaha...my sis housewarming is set tmr i tink but not sure if i'm even going coz i forgot to RSVP her...

oh and that reminds me! u noe i have such short term memory that i'll forget to reply sms or calls till hours later??and there are pp who get angry over silly things like tat...jus coz i forget to reply...and when pp sms lame stuff rite, sometimes i jus put it as second level coz i tink its unimportant so i'll deal with it later on...and pp get angry with me...how immature.but i guess its ok...mayb i'm jus in a foul mood again...

exams are starting and with a dark cloud hanging over me,i doubt i can concentrate..waaaaaaaaaaa!

2008-09-05T18:38:00.002+08:00

heyy i'm back!!!!!

past few days was quite boring but i guess its alrite!HAHAHAHA!

got some glitch regarding math consultation so ended up having none...and someone p.s me by not even bothering to turn up or smsing me anything...

so yupp i wasted an entire morning!

i was q angry coz i felt she was too much by not even bothering to wake up early to inform me anything...worse still she din even say sorry la!

and she p.s me again today!!!!!!!!!!

from now on i'll jus not bother asking her out or anything.its too much i guess...jus treat her like some acquaintance lor since she doesn't think i'm imp enuff to bother abt...so ok den!

we played cards instead of studying full time...LOL...and i tink i lost quite abit but only won one game...SIGH!hahahaha...its still beta than nothing.!

we played illi phone abt some music ting(ok,everyone noes i suck at games!!!esp music ones...tsk)and SURPRISE!!!! i won both eddy and a gal!!!! by luck bahx since i was pressing all e buttons randomly,hoping to win!!!HAHAHAHAAH

chem was a total disaster coz i screwed up even e simplest ques------one abt wat group the element belongs too....was supposed to see e group thru ionisation energies so i counted e wrong direction...instead of outer shell in,i counted inner shell out...so obviously its WRONG!

charan and nik laughed their asses off at me and even mrs so laughed la!omg...wat a buffoon i was!!!HAHAHA...nvm...great minds make simple mistakes=)
anw...today i keep making mistakes!

2008-09-03T17:43:00.002+08:00

hey!!! i'm back to destress from my daily disturbances and rigours...HAHAHA

u noe,i was jus tinking that i hardly have any best frens the older i grow??

when u're in kindergarden and primary sch,u used to have best frens...those that'll be the first to noe abt any hilarious or stupid stuff u do and those that u'll look for first thing in e morning!

now i hardly remem my kindergarden bestie's name and i've more than drifted apart from my primary sch bestie...

u noe,i was talking to a fren the oth time and he said he doesn't have any best frens in jc anymore...and i stop having best frens in sec sch...its not that we dont wanna have best frens but its jus not really there u geddit??

its like i'll joke ard with my own clique and tell them stupid stuff but none of them is my bestie...we may be close until we say tings simultaneously but somehow they aren't considered my best fren...and oso i doubt they consider me as their best fren...rite?

quite funny that the older we grow the more frens we have but we dun have any best frens...really sad coz there's no one u'll be all excited to talk to when something happens,no one u'll ask out first ting when u wanna go shopping or something...if i go shopping,i'll ask the entire group...not one person...HAHAHAHA

looks like we're REALLY living in a lonely world despite advances in tech( gp essay ques)

and then there are those that we have a jolly good time tgt when we're in sch joking and everything...but funny thing,we dun even have each oth's number!!!HAHAHAHAHAHA!

smiles!=)

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2008-09-02T14:48:00.001+08:00

2008-08-29T20:41:00.003+08:00

hello!!!!

today morn was a disaster coz i woke up super early la! i din noe today starts at 8.30 so i woke up at usaual time...omg...wat a disaster...

and best ting i din noe till shakira told me la!HAHAHAHA...luckily for me nisha oso was as noob so i met her in mac and the two of us---noobs----were consoling each other...HAHAHA.oh ya,wendy was dragged awake by nisha to acc her in mac...LOL!

and oh ya...nisha is sooooooooooooo act cute!!! hahaha.here's a special dedicated paragraph to her...she totally gave that act cute face to try and charm shakira into giving her e hash brown!WAHAHAHAHA

saw manprit and shakira's fren( ye qi rite???erm not sure...)mayb i shld actcute to either of them like nisha and see their reaction! HAHAHA

well,we then went to sch but tcher's day celeb was a total BORE... omg la.haha.i mean no one is interested to see telematches to be honest...mayb some performance would be nice!ahahaha...oh ya,there were some funny parts where a plump tcher fell into e mud...poor ting...wonder how he's gonna wash his soiled clothes!

den aft that we kept camwhoring coz we're so bored...we started to kill cheryll's carebear...and we skipped math( thank god we did! turns out got no math...its jus collect paper) and went long john to eat...but coz i was not v hungry nor rich i decided to only eat double choco cookie! my fav!!! yummy...

den we went to watch some movie!SPACE CHIMPS! was quite funny man esp e pat bout e indian scientist with e funny accent!!! haha.and e aliens are funny coz there's one whose head will glow when its scared...ahaha.its head is jhuge too! jus like cheryll's face...wahahaha.jus jok

felt really bad coz we ps cheryl soh to watch e movie coz she die oso dun want watch space chimps...so she went shopping alone...man..guilty ridden!!!! but she din mind(i tink?) so its ok...tho if its me i'll jus emo...i mean u wanna shop alone meh??

den jus staggered home to sleep...omg such a pig.ya i noe...cheryl said the more u sleep the tired-der u become but i jus sleep like some pig whether or not i'm tired!!!! omg...i must be suffering from some weird stuff.

i din went back sec sch la coz like no one from our sch going back...but its ok! i doubt i'll miss kang kang that much! HAHAHAHA.

2008-08-28T14:03:00.002+08:00

omg...i went to e dentist yester...freaking horrifying i tell u ...

e dentist was late.not that i mind...

but she said i need to go prom in my braces! OMG!!!! PLS PLS PLS DUN BE LIDDAT

looks i'll end up joining ash ine same fate...braces at prom!!!!! omg!!!

my teeth hurts like shit...can even eat wanton mee properly without eee-ing and owwww-ing...

susan have to keep helping me cut noodles and provide water coz i was so clumsy,e sauce spilled on me! omg...

i'm like some little kid la! man...grumble.

and gp was a DISASTER... i did ques 8 la.and its like one of the toughest ques yet i still do.coz i wanted a challenge...

tell me.why do i keep drowning myself in stuff that i noe i cant do???will be a TOTAL miracle if i passed la.SIANZ....

i really hate braces...counting down to e day when i can take it off!

2008-08-26T17:59:00.002+08:00

well loads have happened!!!!

erm but i cant remem...well for one,my mum went to pulau ubin to cycle and ended up rolling down the hill coz she forgot how to brake....(-_-")erm and she said i couldn't cycle...

anw,i had to help her cover her wounds and honestly i had a little fun coz she kept ooo-ing and ow-ing so i get to made fun of her a little...but hey i was almost late for sch coz i hafta cover her wounds lor! see i so wei da..

erm...my dad travelled all e way to geylang to find the parts to salvage our boken lock( did e hulk bammed our door or something?)

boy...must have been e 100th time our door spoilt!

anw,someone said something which affected me alot...he said i cant appreciate those tat are nice to me,namely susan and my frenz...now i feel absolutely in e dumps coz i feel that he's right...i'm such a obnoxious gal that i take things for granted! some i regret,others i dont!i feel as tho i'm not good enuff for susan coz i'm so immature and rash and temperamental...and i've been feeling that way for a pretty long time.

so yupp,mayb we shld jus lay off and stay apart awhile coz i feel that poor susan is suffering.it'll make susan happier if susan doesn't have to deal with my nonsense.

anw! zul said my class guys are really nice!and i agree...they are very caring and all...wat a pity i jus have a very unsavoury feeling towards my class...

zul say i shld hang out with them more instead of emoing and beinga loner...yupp he's rite but i feel like its not v appropriate since many pp thinks i'm a flirt.SIGH.

and i'm still....a loner in class! hahahahahaha...

played cards with CK from my class...she jus taught me that i *sob* CANT PLAY CARDS! which is utterly true!!! hahahaha...thats why i shld observe her when she plays and steal her aura! WAHAHAHAHAHA

cheryll's leg is still like some elephant's leg and she keeps refusing to go doc...so mayb we shld drag her there....somehow,i still miss touch rug! mayb its e increasing weight on e scales but i tink i shld go exercise more...

2008-08-22T15:29:00.003+08:00

my freaking door lock jus dropped off so now there's only one handle on one side of the door! oh man...and we cant seem to find pp who sell e same design!

den maybe gotta change e ENTIRE doors la...wat a waste of money...hope we can afford it!money's been pretty tight on my mum's side recently...must be e rising costs!haix...things jus keeps coming one aft another!

anw yey! today is the last day of term 3! and term 4 is all lectures apparently! yey...so i can join my frenz instead of my class...=)

and i heard joel yelled at yu shan today in lt4...serve that bossy gal right! mayb she jus deserved it since she's been irritating e hell outta pp...bleah! retribution for her! oh man...thats sooooooooooooooooo mean...ok,i shall jus try to remain neutral.

jiayou joel bro!

2008-08-21T22:02:00.002+08:00

today was the rugby match and there's sadness and happiness as well as a little vulgarity...

i played reallly rough and i jus pushed e guys in emelyn's team coz i figured they can take it since they're guys.

but i felt super guilty bout grabbing may's shirt...poor gal!!! haix.u see everythime i feel threatened i evolve into miss murderer! wat a scaryy evolution...

anw, we won em team 4-3,xw team 1-0 and lost to cetera team 5-3...we also lost to boulder's team 4-2 and boy that smarts esp coz it was e match that determined the medal winners...

plus kelvin stepped on my toes la...was in some huge confusion den he ran too fast and stepped on my toes!!! i can feel my toes like crushing la...hurt like hell coz he had these studs on his boots and it jus added HUGE pressure...

i SCREAMED FUCK like about a million times coz it was realllllly painful.thank god my toe nails are alive and its only e bones that hurts...its jus bruises!=)

i scolded kelvin la.and i was super guilty...i tink i affected him and dom's mood when i crashed out so we lost 5-3...feel so guilty la.

i was so vulgar i'm kinda shocked myself! even coach asked me why i was so pissed...den i practically yelled "i use boots and step u u see pain anot la!"

haix.wat a bad bad day...aft i crashed out cheryll took my place! boy i was so proud of her!!!! and syabil...those two are warriors man...

still cant believe i was so rough and vulgar.HAIX!!!

totally a side of me EVEN I DONT NOE!!!HAHAHAHA

but we played well la! jus that i felt guilty bout syabil not playing much coz he had to sit out e crucial matches...and ther's so much crucial matches...haix! i promise i'll play with him someday!!!

my toes are screaming now so excuse me while i tend to them!

2008-08-20T16:50:00.004+08:00

today hafiz seems a little down so i shall give my opinion on his post...HEAR THIS HAFIZ! AND EVERYONE ELSE.

i agree with him that humans are judgemental.like hell to anyone who can purely say they aren'T! maybe zul was rite in the sense that we are cramping his character...i admit...i told zul openly that i thought he was a little gay. and he asked me to say wat i meant----good or bad.

this is wat i meant
1) its good that he's 'gay' coz he can connect to us ,gals,but then he has to accept the fact that society typecasts man as being the stronger.if he keeps being 'gay' its not us,gals, that will be against him...but like he said,he'll be shunned.

look at me.i admit i'm very straightforward and i just tell tings straight to ur face.if u're a bitch,i tell u "u're a f****** bitch u noe?"

if u're gay, i tell u "u're gay"

and i'm being prejudiced against jus coz i'm not the typical sensitive sweet gal.

i can act sweet,but is that wat u really want?do u really want me to cotton and butter u up?i can do that but i tink its below my principles.i dont care how bloody hurting or bitchy i am but at least i tell my honest opinion unlike others who pretend to be demure and of coz make me the scapegoat.

ya.maybe i'm not nice and lovely. but at least i'm sincere.is that a crime?i noe many pp tinks that i'm insensitive and crude.think again

I.DARE.TO.BE.DIFFERENT.

FOR THAT I'M JUDGED UPON AND SHUNNED JUS COZ I DARE TO LET U NOE WAT THE HELL I TINK OF U.

mayb i'm insensitive for saying that but at least I DARE say out wat i really think.

IF I'M A BITCH FOR SPEAKING UP?THEN WAT ARE U USELESS BUMS THERE WHO ONLY NOE HOW TO BUTTER UP PEOPLE? U TINK JUS BY BUTTERING UP PEOPLE,U'RE BETTER THAN ME?

uh uh.wrong answer.i tink u're worse than a scum coz u dun even have the guts to be true to ur own opinion.

if u're really that person's fren,u'll tell them where they go wrong encouragingly. AND TAKE NOTE.its not the chance for u to criticise pp jus coz u dun like them( like someone la.u all noe who...-.-")

and if u dun like pp,jus tell them straight to the face coz i'm q sure they'll appreciate it rather than being left in the dark.(at least thats in my case)

here.i'm gonna say this now.

I BOW DOWN TO NOBODY BUT MYSELF.

I BELIEVE ONLY MYSELF.

WHEN I SAY SOMETHING MEAN,ITS MY BLOODY TRUE OPINION.DUN LIKE IT,DONT BE MY FREN.

I'M DOWNRIGHT STRAIGHTFORWARD AND I DONT MINCE MY WORDS.

CALL ME SELF CENTRED AND SPOILT,BUT I NOE THAT I'M 100 TIMES MORE RESILIENT MENTALLY THAN U LOSERS OUT THERE DOUBTING ME.

and lastly....

NEVER JUDGE ME OR ASSUME U NOE EVERYTHING ABOUT ME COZ,U LITTLE TWIT OUT THERE,ACTUALLY DOESN'T NOE A SHIT ABOUT ME.

and zul...u've got not much choice but to act like wat they expect coz well,u're a guy...hahahaha
thank god i'm a gal!!!! at least i get some leeway tho they still criticise me

2008-08-17T16:18:00.002+08:00

i jus read zul's blog...haix.see,when he emo's it affects me too coz i'll start wondering bout e same thing...hmmm???do any of u pp there reading my blog really really care about me???like if i'm sad u'll cheer me up and stick by me??

i tink most prob not la...u guys would be too busy! hahaha...come to tink of it,most of my frenz have been those type that fades after a while but that doesn't mean i dun treasure them k?! sometimes u jus cant keep ties no matter how hard u try...

so listen up!i'm saying this once only...

IF I PICK A FIGHT WITH U,IT MEANS I CARE ALOT ABOUT U TO WONDER WHETHER U'LL BE MY FREN EVEN IF WE FIGHT.

IF I SAY NASTY AND MEAN STUFF WITHOUT SOUNDING NICE,ITS MY TRUE OPINION COZ I WANT U TO NOE.

IF I TEASE U,IT MEANS I WANT UR ATTENTION AS A FREN.

IF I KEEP THINGS FROM U ,IT MEANS I DONT WANT TO WORRY U.

IF I STILL COME TO SCHOOL WHEN I'M SICK AND PRETEND TO BE NORMAL,IT MEANS I REALLY TREASURE U AS A FREN COZ I DUN MIND STRUGGLING IN SCH JUS TO JOKE AND LAUGH WITH U.

AND LASTLY....IF I IGNORE U AND REFUSE TO EVEN ACKNOWLEDGE UR PRESENCE BUT I STILL TREAT AND TALK TO U DECENTLY,IT MEANS THAT I'VE GIVEN UP ON U AS A FREN THO I STILL REGRET THE FIGHT.SO EFFECTIVELY,I WOULDN'T CARE IF U DIED OR NOT.

here!!! this is wat it means when i treat my frenz!!!! YEY!!! hahaha...so yupp!!! no worries...i'm jus another irritating pest!

2008-08-16T18:57:00.002+08:00

pic of my sis sofa bed and toys!!!!

cute huh????

loveeeeeeeee it!!!!

next time when i have my own house i want this!!!! hint hint!!!!hahahahaha

2008-08-13T18:46:00.002+08:00

heyy!!! i'm back!!!! gosh...today i was so tired i was in such a awful mood...in addition to being a loner in my class and sticking to my old class frenz,i was very irritable spoilt and hell acting like a prima donna.

sorry nik for getting all huffed coz u wont pon assembly

sorry joel for snapping at u.

sorry all my loyal frenz for acting like some brat in e park

i was really very exhausted...coz i tink i suffer from insomnia and cant seem to sleep! so while my eyes are closedc and my body gets to rest,mentally i'm stretched to the limits...

yester i emoed all of a sudden and began to really wonder who's my frenz again...ya i noe its an exhausted topic but i'm so insecure now.i'm scared i'll trust the wrong person or make a mistake...

regarding my class,i'm effectively working alone now and i talk to hardly anyone except the guys and ck cozi find gals too much of a bother...i mean they are against me so its noyt worth my time bothering bout them!

the guys are quite ok actually! come to tink of it,i only join them when i pon lesson! HAHAHA

yester someone said i was a little like a flirt coz i jus hang ard with guys and that got me kinda riled up coz i really hate pp to assume stuff...SL say jus ignore them coz she say i'm more hao wan so i prefer to joke with the guys...

wat to say lei??i belong neither here nor there...not in my new class nor in my old class...in my new class i'm effectively the bitchy spoilt gal when its not even my freaking fault...and in my old class,we're not as close as we were last time.i feel so sad u noe?like i cant fit anywhere...speaking of which usually i mind being a loner coz i'm not used to it...but now i tink i jus dun give a damn anymore.its quite liberating coz u can do wat u like without caring bout e others.

anw...lets go to stories!!! i talked to this basketball guy(wats his name???Erm...)and we were talking bout beijing olympics!!! i swear diving and gymnastics were like e best la!!!!! its sooooooooooooooooo PERFECT!but den he told me there's tis gal in weightlifting tat weighs 45 kg but can lift 90 kg!!!!OMG~~~~~~~wats that????she's lighter than me!!!!bleah

oh ya...that day something funny happened!!! me and tze ting went to eat tau huay...den i keep complaining my tau huay not sweet...GUESS WAT????its coz i forgot to stir!!!!OMG!!!! i'm getting old...and tze ting keep laughing at me -.-"

BLEAH!

2008-08-11T12:26:00.002+08:00

HELLO!!!!

remem i said i'll talk bout my sis house???

wa...i tink her house is like my dream house la!!!!! u noe she and her husband has some really cute furniture???like my sis personal sofa bed! i love it!!! its got this cute cute prints on it! pity i din take a pic of it! and oh ya! there's wooden flooring too! and did i mention??their tv is soooooooo huge my mouth jus hung open!!!!hahahaha and oh ya! their fan and lights are remote operated! hahahaha

then there's this crocodile toy with quite a story behind it...one day my sis and her husband went to ikea...

my sis:look lao gong! the hippo toy is so cute!(looking from back view of crocodile toy)
her husband:lao po...thats not a hippo...its a crocodile!( horrified+amused look)
my sis:(keeps insisting its a hippo)

guess wat??turned out the two eyes sticking outta e crocodile's head looks like hippo's ears from e back view!!!WAHAHAHAHAHA how dumb can my sis get??

anw,my sis shower unit has a story behind it too...one day cass went to her sis house!
me:ok,i go bathe first...
sis:nid help to work it anot?
me:(act pro) no need la! i sure can use...

20 mins later....

me:(still fiddling with e shower stuff like some mountain tortoise)
sis+her husband:(in fits of laughter in e kitchen)

FINALLY...

me:JIE!!!! COME HELP ME LA!!!!!!!!
sis:WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

moral of the story,dun try to act pro like me!HAHAHAHA

oh my sis dragged me to jalan kayu roti prata place!!! i thought its pretty ok but e place is chokeful of foreigners and in e dark ureally honestly cant tell them apart....they'll jus appear rite in front of u!!! hahaha...scary huh ?? so my sis said "next time come her must come with me,later got too much bangla den it'll be dangerous"

how typically biased...HAHAHAHA

2008-08-07T09:55:00.009+08:00

NEWS PRINT!!!!

cheryll is such a bimbo....=) hahaha...she's sitting next to me with her tau huay butt overflowing into e chair...GROSS!!!!

I TINK MY COACH IS superrrrrrrrr CHILDISH!!! AND I NOE U'RE PASSERBY LOR COACH!!!STOP ACTING INNOCENT...WE ALL NOE U'RE STALKING US THRU OUR BLOGS!!!!!

wa....coach said he'll give me his training tee from e national team but it turned out to be a totall disaster!!! its like GRAY with some gigantic standard charter in front...wat a anti climax la...i was sooo super excited then i saw this shirt with weird prints...no offence but it looks like some ah pek's shirt la...omg...mayb wear to market bahx!!!HAHAHAH jus joking!

hello im cheryll the great(((; im a very smart and intelligent person who will be an aerospace engineer in the future! Wahaha i love physics!! and i hope i will get A for Physics for my A level. Erm. best is if i can get A for all subj. hmmm, oh and cass is the bimbo she is noisy and fierce and loves pink. and im smart la-_- oya and she just made the monitor fall. violent

oh wells...cheryll is erm in denial???hahahaha...anw,e monitor felll coz got some fat gal thought she's v light and leaned ther...ok maybe she wasn't fat but she's erm...HUGE??

i hate pink btw but erm i'll let cheryll live in her bimbotic fantasy where everything is pink and adorned with gerard's face...hahahaha!!!! oh and tau huay butt sat till the chair kinda was twisted...so POWERFUL!!!!mayb she farted den e toxic gases melted it...HAHAHAHA

regarding wat i wrote jus now is my private thoughts...i've deleted it so as to not cause any concern...hence this posting from here on i s an edited one.

yey! next week mitting zhi ting to play volleyball!!!ang zhiting was from volleyball!!!!waaa,i din noe eh! so zai la!its like...u wouldn't guess she's from sports! HAHAHA

2008-08-03T14:15:00.002+08:00

OMG!!!!I'VE BEEN GONE FOR SOOOOO LONG@!!!!

anw,great news!!! i jus went to rebond my hair AGAIN! my mom was like throwing fits coz i went against her wishes of NOT ruining my hair....sorry mom but i really hate my hair!!!its soooo curly wurly la!!!!

there's this uber cheap offer at lik 58 bucks but turned out it was for those extreme indian-ish hair...and if i used that it'll make my hair brittle...so i had to opt for thr 78 buck one...my dad din say anything but i sense he's not too happy bout having a balding daughter!!!

see,i tink i'm soooooooooo stressed!!! i keep dropping hair so i'm like some furball...any ideas why this is happening???

anw,i tink my coach is quite childish...see,i said him that time den he pulled my rubberband and clip out...den he crushed paper and threw it at me!!! soooooooooooooo immature...but he's nice coz he specially smsed me to cheerup regarding recent events...but also he's kinda whiny coz he keeps complaining i dun sms back fast enuff!!!

i had a major spat wif someone recently over the weekend...and we almost broke off i tink.its pretty upsetting and all but now i'm fine!!!!

jalan kayu roti prata and muthubak is GREAT!!!! but there's so much foreigners there i almost freaked out...spent e weekend at my sis new house!!!will tell ya guys details later!!!

2008-07-28T19:39:00.002+08:00

HAHA

i tink sometimes i'm too straight forward...u noe that time me and nik went to go buy present for someone...(yosin maybe??!)

den e price for somethin g was tooooooooooooo high so i jus turned straight to nik and asked him" so u dun wan la?" in front of the shop keeper coz he looked along e lines of its-too-expensive!!!

ahahahahaha

he kept cursing after that coz he felt so paisei...LOL!!! iand i jus couldn't stop giggling throughout e whole day!!!!
and den he told me that i shld jus said"we'll take a look ard"and then zao!!! HAHAHAH

now u guys noe how innocent and bad at words i am...

haha.still remem tat time my fren cried...instead of hugging and comforting her,i scolded her!!! coz i felt that she was too boneless and i wanted to scold her till she picked herself up!!!hahaha....guess i have a diff way of comforting!!!

my poor frens....

hahaha...SORRY U GUYS GOTTA LIVE WITH MY WEIRD MANNERS!!!! ahhahahaha

2008-07-26T19:18:00.003+08:00

here to blog!!! today someone said i was too mean to HER coz i insulted her parents...and i agree.SURPRISE! actually i felt very guilty about it but i guess i was too angry to care! i mean i've got enuff from her so i jus exploded...

so i apologised to her.mind u,i'm still angry with her judgemental attitude but its jus not me to not say sorry when i knew i went overboard...jus blame me for being too weird! haha

she said she cant forgive me but i feel beta now coz i confronted my ugly side and did some thing i tink no one else would.i admitted i was wrong...IN CERTAIN STUFF K?!!! i still tink she drove me to breaking point but i tink i shld jus forget it coz i doubt she'll say sorry...

there's something she mentioned that caught me.she said she got a hard life and i had no idea wat she's been thru.that makes me wonder how she can assume i had a comfy life.

despite how cheerful i'm usually,i do hide secrets.coz its too ...i dunno.its hard to talk about it without feeling upset.and also i realised i cant trust anyone or rely on anyone but myself.
i tink if u've been thru wat i've been, u'll agree.
its jus instinct to ...keep cetain stuff to urself so that u'll be stronger.

i tink its time everyone stop takeing me for a spoilt brat with a comfy life.its nothing like that.i may have said some stuff to someone about my past but its not e full picture.its just to hard to say it out coz i feel that its something thats very...hard to accept.

it may have kinda hurt/affected me ( kinda onlyK?!) but it also taught me to only rely on myself.taught me to be strong.taught me to never show my weaknesses.as in the REAL weaknesses.

thats probably why i'm always been in e fight to survive mode perhaps.its e only way i can feel safe??

haha!!! but i've did my best and confronted my meanie beanie side so i have no regrets.like wat i said,i never regret my decisions.even if i've made my new class dislike/hate me,i wun look back.i trust no one but myself!

haha!!!that reminds me..someone said i may be small but i put up a good fight...oh wells cant help it if i'm strong!!!HAHAH
every thing decision i do is usually thru careful consideration...but sometimes i screw up and that proves i'm human.

anw, about today!!!!we went sentosa for touch rugby!!! haix so little pp went but i had fun coz we played beach touch nd volleyball!!!! not bad eh??i tink i manage to get back e hang of volleyball!!!! i managed to spike and jiu ball!!!! not bad k?!!! cant believe i was actually in volleyball for a while last time!!!!HAHAHA...

anw, hannah bluff me la!!! she say she'll pass me my waterbottle!!!but in e end she din!!!tsk tsk!!!

wa lau cheated me rite???!!!!

anw,i'm soooooooooooooo sunburned la!!!! played like crazy in e sun playing amazing race!!!hahaha.i tink my hair was like some carpet!!!HAHAHAHA

but i did had fun...i tink 0706 shld go sentosa soon too!!!(hint hint!!!) HAHAHAHA

den aft that went to get sh lai pressie...tell u she gonna be sooooooooooooo...speechless man...HAHAHA!!!

yey!!! cheerful gal !!!!

2008-07-25T14:55:00.002+08:00

hello!!!!

many lovely souls have asked me not to emo so i shall stop emo-ing!!!see,i so guai...-.-"

anw,wei kok ask me why i so emo for e past few days and guess wat???i managed to keep my trap shut and not demonise anyone!!!! big achievement k?!!! see,joel, i told u i'm not e bad guy...HAHAHAHA

now everything still sucks but i got only 2 more months of being a loner!!!HAHAHA but its not so bad...i tink my class still tries to make me feel welcomed even tho i'm pushing everyone away...so kudos to them!!!!!

talking about popcorn! yester popcorn was sooo nice!!! pek sia went to grab them from william yeo( geog teacher) and we get to gobble it up!!! we were like munching happily till we saw BALLS!!! big balls made up of unpopped popcorn and sweet coating...funny huh???it looks gross and wendy got all disgusted from eating popcorn but hey...its edible i guess! coz nisha ate it and said its nice...like some giant gob stopper i guess...

now since qiujing is here,i gotta make her type something too!!!

from qiujing:"hi,cass forced me to type something, but i dunno what to type. so sad.........................."

hahahah...qiu jing is sooooooooooooooo shy...awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

anw i got 63 ranking points!!! very high hor??to me la!!! i'm so proud of myself so i'm gonna ask everyone to clap for me!!!big achievement k?!!!!!=) anw,gtg go mug instead of being super slacker so ya...bb!

2008-07-24T18:18:00.003+08:00

wat a rainy day!!!hahahaha~trying to sing dancing in e rain but i doubt such a song exists!!!

should i tell everyone wat really happened???but then again...i better not.or i might be biased...
a certain someone said if he's in the same situation he'll shout at her.but i overreacted...oh wells,since everyone thinks i'm e bad guy den let it be!!! i dun really care anymore...but i'll be quite pleased if its true that she really had tried to like me...but sometimes i cant help but wonder.can u really like someone if u hated them before u even noe them??hahaha.jus rubbish from me again.

today wendy and nisha asked me to talk...and i did.

sometimes i wonder why i'm so rash and do things which i do regret afterwards...even if i do regret it,i wun apologise coz i figure its over.

today i saw some of my frenz and we talked and joked ard like there's nothing wrong

for one day i really felt happy...from the horrible days before

thats when i figured,i now noe who are my frenz

i figured who to talk to in class and who not to...=) its a big achievement k?

i now noe who each person is siding...and oso i felt abit guilty for demonizing the gal like that...yep i was angry but aft the big thing,she stopped irritating me so yupp thats a big freedom.
and jus mayb i was too angry to care about sensitive issues like her parents.

i'm so mean when i'm angry.and i jus dun care about anything.

and oso poor shuting.i dragged her to D&D with my old class and now we've argued so yupp i feel like i've caused her tis trouble...she's gonna be feeling awkward.lucky jingyi and li xiang invited her to join their table

honestly, i had no idea i would jus explode coz i figured SHE would stop criticizing me and i most prob will get used to it.
big prob is that things din go that way.i didn't appreciated getting criticised and i din manage to keep my temper down.
so things got blew outta proportion...pp will always side those they are with longer...

which is HER.nothing wrong with that...if its me,i'll do that too

and now i wished i've jus dropped my 4H2s

so none of this will happen.i'll still be laughing

smiling

not feeling miserable

maybe i'm feeling miserable in my class but i cant jus change my class can i?

wat a big waste.i shld nvr have tried changing class..jingyi warned me i may not integrate but i jus love my4h2s more.so i tried...

wats wrong with trying?

but then.even my good frenz i thought i knew well seems so distant.or izzit jus that i cant seem to appreciate them?

seriously, i've jus changed...ask me to smile and my face CRACKS...oh wells.

its ok to be alone.i cant rely on oths
i tink?? haha.oh no i beta snap outta this.i wouldn't like having a droopy face rite? haix!!!=)

2008-07-22T19:36:00.002+08:00

ok!!!! i'm alot more cheerful now...i've decided i'm not gonna waste my time over frenz that aren't my best frenz...i dun mean to sound cruel but if they aren't gonna bother to make up den forget it!!!=)

i was looking thru those pics we took...and suddenly,i saw those happy pics i took with my old class and my new frenz...it made me laugh!!! esp angela's octopus toy!!! remem we played with it and somehow it ended up bouncing ard e lecture theatre and hitting someone's head??HAHAHAHA.that was FUNNY!!!

and den i saw e nurse stuff and its kinda funny coz i remem me and jcelyn got stop by pp wanting to take pics with e nurses!!!!HAHAHA was so paisei la...and jocelyn look damn innocent...somehow i tink she suit being a nurse more than me...

chen and e rest were acting like invalids and its funny coz everyone kept forgetting their role...like i forget i'm e nurse and i'm supposed to help the injured...and the injured forget to...well, look injured??

hahaha...now i can talk abt those i'm at loggerheads with at ease coz well,we aren't frenz anymore so its jus memories...mayb i will regret losing their frendship but now i feel quite ok lei...mayb coz i'm still angry! hahahaha

oh oh oh!!! there's this pic of me and the other two cheryls in e toilet...wanna noe why??they were like playing with my rebonded hair( newly rebonded at e time lor!!!) and tying all sorts of patterns...it hurt pretty much and if i remem,my hair dropped by quite alot!!!HAHAHA

and there's so much funny stuff i did last yr and this yr but i've forgotten bout it...i kinda miss my frens( good or bad or watever) now...hahahahah but hey,i'm sure there'll be more happy days!!!

and did i mention?joel's watch is damn freaking heavy...mini dumbell i tell u...my aim is to wear it everyday!!! someday,my muscles will bulge out!!!HAHAHAH

2008-07-22T16:06:00.002+08:00

to lixiang: if u dun like wat eva's thats being written here den jus dun bother coming anymore...i've already said i'm venting my anger so who ever that has a problem shld jus buzz off.i dun give a damn if u're on her side or mine.no offence but its true wat.dun like den dun read lor.besides i still included a note RIGHT INFRONT too...haha

today was kinda boring...math test was a total booza coz i din study so i was contemplating ponning but cheryl said she got mark attendance so i went coz i prob oso got mark.

its really funny coz they say they'll push e going thru e ques till next week before e test.den next week test how??how they gonna go thru e test??

weird

anw,sherling said mayb e gal may be a bitch but she doesn't want me to be a bitch flaming her as well.

well that makes sense coz yu shan is quite insignificant.

3 more months to go in this class!!!! i tink its a horribly long time but i jus gotta wait a little more for e sake of my 4h2s!!!!hahahaha

someone told me i look sad today...haiz i dun get it man,everytime i stop smiling pp tink i'm sad....my face is lik tat!!! i cant help looking sad jus coz i stop smiling! i mean comeon man...pls dun expect me to smile all e way coz i'll get sore muscles.

today was really such a bore...i tink i might jus grow cobwebs!!!!!

speaking of which,shakira and angela said those sweets from australia was too hard...mayb i put it in e fridge too long??hmmm...must go see if e choco got urn to ice anot...its only like 1 month later la...-_-"

2008-07-21T17:14:00.006+08:00

NOTE: my tempers are flaring as i'm writing this.pls read post with care esp e bitching part.it may or may not be true,its my opinion...

but i tink its true...hahahaha

i tink yu shan is a fucking bitch ma. she told me she from e start she din like me.SO THAT'S WHY SHE KEEP FUCKING IRRITATING THE HELL OUTTA ME AND SHOOTING ME!!!

that fucking bitch is such a loser man.to think i still said i thought she was ok when someone said bad stuff bout her...serve her rite for all e bad stuff that's been hapening to her!!! i tink she's spoilt,irritating,short temper and she's TOTALLY the bane of her parents...

come on man....i dun care if u guys think i'm ultra bitch but she's WAYY OVER THE LINE!!! she kept picking on me till i exploded and now i tink she's been planning that all along...something along the lines of "lets irritate the shit out of cass till she explodes and cut off all friendship ties"

wat the fuck!!!!

and she still dare to act innocent and say she tried to like me!!! wat the hell??? its COMMON SENSE that if she have a bad opinion at first its hard to change it.AND WAT THE FUCK, SHE DIN EVEN NOE ME BEFORE I JOIN 0710 AND SHE STILL GOT THE GUTS TO FORM AN OPINION ABOUT ME!!!!SHE DOESN'T EVEN NOE ME!!!!!!!!!!AAAARGH

she's so fucked up man...SHE TOTALLY PICKED E WRONG GAL TO PICK A FIGHT.i'm not letting her off and i'm gonna give her hell from now on...payback time for sabo-ing me for the past 7 months...that fucking bitch/slut. usually i'm quite gracious but a lowlife, slut,scum like her deserves none of my graciousness.i've been tolerating her for months trying to be nice even tho she keep picking on me for every fucking single thing.BITCH,GO TO HELL.

anw,i tink its no loss to me i'm not even on talking terms with her...she's not worth it...no wonder her band incharge keep picking on her coz she's jus SUCH A LOSER...good job band incharge!!!!

well,i thought today i was gonna be real loner and everything but it wasn't so bad coz there was joel chingkheng sk and joy to talk to.can it be my clique is not as imp to me as i thought?? how evil sounding but maybe i feel happier and free-er coz there's so freaking spoilt yu shan in my face...oh btw,did i mention??she's damn super ugly..and guess wat??i'm not e only one to tink so....HAHA.i'm not perfect or pretty but i noe a deformity when i see it.haha i sound reall evil now rite?? but that's coz i'm angry...pardon me but i'm not very eloquent when i'm pissed.

well today was supposed to celebrate shuting's bdae...but i din bother to even wish her happi bdae..which makes me feel a little uncomfortable coz she's still my fren even tho we're arguing...

wait a minute why am i even feeling guilty??!!!

anw,e guys said e cheesecake her volleyball frens made look like its from e toilet bowl...SO MEAN LA!!! hahaha but i tink its ok la...its jus a little gooey and all.

then today was fun coz i 'stole' joel watch to wear and even to its like some dumbbell,its still pretty ok!!!!HAHAHA prob is its very very loose...

then aft geog me and wendy they all went library and study...but its quite funny coz we were crapping about...wendy's saliva kinda contaminated my frog purse!!!EEEWWWWW(wendy u hearing this??)

and nisha wanted to blow her bad breath into my frog to make it bloat...( i tink e frog almost diedHAHAHAHA)

den i tried kissing the frog but no prince charming...guess it doesn't work that way????

AHAHAHAHAHA

2008-07-20T11:08:00.002+08:00

to li shi:

maybe u were rite in the sense that i wasn't thoroughly unhappy in 0710.i noe u guys have been trying so hard to make me fell ok but sometimes when u guys stop trying i see the true attitude u guys have which is heck care.

honestly there's nothing wrong in that honestly i have no idea yi chao existed in my old class till now.yess i'm ashamed!!!! hahahaha but everytime i see him i try to be friendly...see,i'm jus as heck care...hahahaha( gosh guilty conscious)

maybe i'm just being pessimistic but maybe sometimes its better not to try too hard ?? bt anw,dun worry i'll still love u guys from 0710...even those that always made me miserable (hint:joel the gal u said u hated)i'm not trying to sound noble but then mayb my flaw is that i dare to speak when others dont.u see i dun like to keep quiet and suffer i like to speak out and let it be known.

i mean if u dun tell ur frenz they are p.s-ing u,would they even noe??and then its up to them to decide whether they still take me as their frenz or not....both shuting and chen said they din mean it and that leaves the rest.but honestly i dun care alrdy.i'm sorry if i'm such a bitch at times and to be honest i'm not apologising coz thats wat i'm like.like ling once said, if u wanna hear the hurtful truth come look for me.but if u wanna hear the sugar coated stuff,hear from others.

hence,i therefore apologise for my character to 0710 and sorry u guys gotta bear with it for another 3 months longer.sorry!!! hahahahaha

to nikhil:i'm sorry that i grew all angry and hurt ur feelings but then again,i do have a basis to get angry.but i do wish u haven't told me anything regarding the past coz i would rather be blissfully unaware.haha!

to cheryll:yupp!!! u're forgiven! thx for ur waterbottle k??tho next time u shld bring a bigger one so it can fit my entire tummy in...HAHAHAHAH !!!

to sherling: sure gal! i love ya!tell me,why do i feel as tho i'm writing an acceptance letter???hahahaha like achieving the award for the bitchiest queen on earth...HAHAHAHA!

to chunhern: yupp!!! i did alot of lame stuff with my old class so mayb i jus cant seem to accept my new class even tho they've tried their best...hahahaha.but no worries i still love them..hahahaha

ok now my REAL posts starts...
i jus read about people with weird names...i mean wat???!!!!! crazy names like lingual...hahaha but u gotta admit its kinda cute...hahahahaha

that jus brings me back to my younger time when loads of funny stuff happened!!!hahahah...once i was like mistaken for a boy la...so FUNNY RITE??!!! jahahhahah that time i was so offended but now i'm laughing over it...

and oh ya,u noe my sis told me that when i was small i used to be like some robot coz she hafta remind me to chew e food before i start chewing or else i'll jus stop and stare at e tv!!! hilarious is'nt it??but i tink i drove her blood pressure skyhigh coz i took like 1 or 2 hours to eat a meal...hahahaha

oh man...i'm so exhausted today...goodness noe why.hahahahahaha!!!! but mayb that means i'm getting higher rates of metabolism...hahahaha! yey which oso means i'm gonna slim down!

2008-07-19T19:04:00.002+08:00

someone told me before that the friends that i can rely on are those i hang around with...after what i've seen so far,i tink the person is WRONG!!!

hahahaha...even if its rite its for my last year frenz...if u get my drift.somehow now den i realised that those that have always been there for me hearing my crap and everything are those that i never thought i was close to them...their quiet and all but i need them,they really ca nbe strong and really talk me thru...and i'm such an idiot to only realise it now when i've already changed class! hahahaha

those that fear my temper but do not hide from it are those i can really count on...there are two types of people---fair weather frenz and those that are stuck to u.FOR LIFE! hahahaha

i'm feling a little miserable in my new class but then i've always been a little unhappy since i've changed class...see,thats one reason why one should NEVER change my class!!!! hahahaha

i keep telling myself its only 3 more months but i tink its not sustaining me coz i keep isolating myself and running over to others...
i realised that i dun care wat that gang tinks of me anymore.techniclly we're still a group but i only talk to chen and shuting but thats ok with me.i'm not gonna waste my time trying to pretend i'm e best of frenz with anyone anymore.aquantance maybe, frenz?i tink we were never close to that.HAHAHAH

anw today was an interesting day!!!!

we had games before our testi match!!!andits all soapy and slippery...i swear we're playing contact rugby instead of dog-and-bone!!!! hahahahaha

we had scratches from the struggling to get some pingpong balls la...and its all soapy so we kinda fell over one another!!! hahahahaha

den we had this blindfold game (which i was kinda glad i nvr kena blindfold!) which was hilarious coz poor ash got hit on some sensitive areas...

den it was drills time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! funny we got sweating like pigs in under 15 minutes of drills!!! guess we're jus too outta shape...and when e game started,i tink barely 3 mins and i felt like dying alrdy!!! hahahahaha

den aft that i left early showered liek some hurricane so that i can meet gen for e movie...almost didn't make it but still i tink bat man movie wasn't THAT good la...its so lengthy my ass hurt...hahahaha

i had a great time gossiping with gen but of coz i din tell her wats my recent problems
i dun wanna ge hugged or wat eva her method of comfort.i'm strong and so i'm cass-e-great!!! hahahaha
going out again soon...

2008-07-18T18:46:00.001+08:00

yey!!! i'm jus here to celebrate my results

i tink i did very well despite my stress!!! =)

GEOG:C
MATH:C
CHEM:D
PHY:E
GP:E

not very nice but still i'm sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy la!!! nvr thought there'll be a day i pass all my subjs!!!! YEY!!!!HAHAHAHA

2008-07-17T18:07:00.002+08:00

sherling asked me today why cant we be best frenz even when we change classes...HMMM...COMPLEX GP ESSAY QUES.
ok darling,u andi noe very clearly we hardly see each oth anymore..and sure as hell i miss u kiam queen hafiz qiujing shakira and angela and...did i miss out anyone??

the point is we hardly mit anymore and its really sad coz we're like drifting apart...(*i miss u too DOG(yosin))even shakira agrees with me...

anw,i WANNA THANK EVERYONE FOR JIAYOU-ING ME !!! tho i'm alrdy very oily..HAHAHAH .i love u guys k?! so sweet of u to support me....suddenly i feel like prom queen.

well today i got all messed up and pissed at my frenz from 0710 coz i felt like they keep ps-ing me and i was quite miserable..(* I HATE PP TO PS ME!!!) so i exploded,weeped like some reservoir and bawled out like crazy to sherling shakira and qiujing...i'm such a spoilt brat sometimes aren't i ??i tink i suffer from attention deficit coz i must have some sorta attention to entertain me...HAHAHA ...I'M WEIRD...

i noe i'm so childish sometimes but the stress is getting to me...imagine worrying like shit for ur stdies( u noe whether i gotta drop) and plus pms making u all huffed up and plus ur frenz are ps-ing u and plus some personal problems....i tink it adds up to a soap drama...and its really hard to handle!!!!

shakira made me feel alrite again aft she told me she's like feeling a loner in her class too( heyy u assholes in her class! dun lemme catch u bullyimng her or u'll be flying to india with a grand kick from me!!! )see i'm so protective of my gd fren

sherling was like my bestie for e moment when i'm bawling like some underdeveloped baby...qiujing( forever calm lei that gal) was like soothing me!!! thx for ur accompanying qiujing!!! hope u managed to finish ur work...

anw, so joel and ella came to weeping crazy gal cass's rescue...and i really appreciate it coz joel said to forget it and it made me feel ALL E MORE NOT TO FORGET IT... so i told e rest i reallly din like being ps...they have'nt ans my sms except shuting so i guess i got nothing to say??
and ella made me feel like maybe i wasn't such a big extra in my class coz i took diff subj combi.THX GAL!!! LOVE YA!!!

yupp shuting i noe mayb u guys din mean it intentionally but it really bummed me off SO NEVER DO IT AGAIN!!!

hahahaha

oh ya delia pls remem to take ur koala teddy from me!!! i was so happy to see u yester u noe??!!! hahahah we shld meet up soon...

why do i suddenly feel as tho i've got frenz again??

and yosin pls take good care of the drawing of ur idol's hand...HAHAHAH

nikhil stop being a busy body and dying to noe why i cry so u can bully me further....

but ya thx for e concern anw...and cheryll,thx arhz for hiding away whenv i'm bad temper and then when i calm down le den u come out ask me if i'm ok...dun worry i still love ya

2008-07-16T13:52:00.002+08:00

I'M SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MAD!!!!ok not really but jus perplexed

u noe today we were supposed to have mr yeo geog tut during lunch break?? den aft that mr yo said THERE'S NO LESSON!!!! ok i noe i'm usually happy qwhen it comes to tis but i tink this time he's too much!!! he didn't BOTHER TO EVEN SMS US BEFOREHAND TO SAY THERE'S NO TUT,and he FREAKING hell was NOT busy!!!!

guess wat,when we were walking down from 5th floor, we saw him slacking there enjoying e scenary instead of being up there TEACHING US or MARKING OUR EXAM SCRIPTS!!! wat the fuck is the problem with him?? HE EXPECTS A for geog FROM US but he doesn't bother to come teach us and instead prefers to SLACK!!!!

that makes me wonder about the ettiqutte of our teachers seriously.aren't teachers supposed to be TEACHING instead of SLACKING?? and worse of all,he din even say why no lesson la!

i'm no mugger la AND i'll be first to run off if there's no lessons but pls la,at least do wat u're SUPPOSED TO rite???!!!

now i'm all emoing and all...

i seriously have no idea wats wrong wif me!!! i've been getting all pissed off at tiny little stuff or else i feel left out which is weird coz it usually doesn't happen...

now i'm seriously wondering if i have any frenz at all...sad to say,i tink i have hardly any??haha...i'm emo-ing again.mayb i'm having pms and i'm getting IT soon but i tink i'm really quite loner la.haix.i dunno wats driving me cuckoo but i'm feeling really down...

does this happen everytime i'm stressed??somehow i'm feeling pressurised and i feel llike i've got no one to talk to.mayb its at this point then i realise i've got no frenz.but i guess its ok...

anw, today ignatius and gang and chen + me was talking bout duan zhang...they were saying its not good for gals to have duan zhang ( which incidentally i've got) but its supposedly good for guys...those who dunno wat i'm talking about,its got something to do with e lines on ur palm.if there is a straight line on ur palm its a duan zhang and i have it!!!

i've been hearing bout duan zhang since i was young...people either gasp in shock when they see mine or shake their head or they smile.as far as i noe duan zhang have extremes...which means if i have a duan zhang,either my life is very good or very bad...either i'm very smart or i'm very stupid...extremes huh!

i feel upset today and i've been having this black cloud over my head for e past few days...seriously,i dunno wats wrong wif me man..

2008-07-15T17:36:00.003+08:00

REUNION WITH MY OLD PALS!!!!

you noe,i went math lecture with sherling they all and its quite fun coz i realise i do miss them aft all!!!! and the sad ting is i dun tink they do but its still funny nonetheless!!! sher ling was all antsy coz her EC was near her and she was damn hyper...and OMG LA!!! I CANT BELIEVE CHERYLL LAI XINYI PASSED GP!!! i mean she's quite cheena

anw,something dumb happen between me and tis math teacher

teacher: why aren't u copying?? dont tell me u haven't been listening for this whole hour!!!

teacher:your name is cassandra rite?? die already...i noe ur name

ME: ( proudly proclaims) I ALSO NOE UR NAME!!!

OMG!!! why did i even said that???!!!!! like wtf!!!!

oh ya...den me hafiz and qiujing was talking aft that and we keep joking like crap and talking bout stuff like wonderwoman in diapeers coz she's advertising diapers...and how her diapers will fall off when she fly...and how diapers can be a one stop solution for carefree periods!!! quite stupid la...and i was saying diapers could be used to cushion impact...something like i fall and bounce up again due to my wonderous diapers!!! HAHAHAHA

den 0706 was to have a class fun shot this thurs.this kinda makes me feel excluded and reminds me again that i'm no longer there and i shouldn't be treating them as my best friends anymore since we've already drifted apart.

quite sad if u tink about it...and my mids results stink big time la(overall)
GP:E 49/100

MATH:C 56/100

CHEM:D 52/100

PHY:E 48/100

but i haven't got back geog tho i tink i'll fail la...suddenly 4h2s are such a heavy load to juggle!

2008-07-13T18:25:00.002+08:00

OK TODAYS TOPIC IS CARS

ok now i'm like fantasizing about cars!!!! i soooo wanna have those type of batman enabled car with those flashy colours!!!! but of coz i'm no wonder woman and i definitely dun wanna be fighting crime in G-strings...anw,yellow cars are the best coz its colourful!!!! like a bee...

come to think of it,i jus got stung by a bee yester! LUCKY i've got impermeable tons of fats and e sting wasn't that bad!!!!!

ok back to my car fantasy...it has to be able to fly, turn into jacuzzi and beachside resort...lol,i'm talking crap.

but honestly cars are a waste of cash!!!! imagine all e erp u gotta pay...fuel and all...plus parking! so now i've began tinking bout using publictransport in my near future even if i earn enuff to buy my dream car...

its kinda sad rite?? but i'm so wei da i'm doing it for the enironment!!! LIKE REAL...

btw, i jus read e papers bout this malaysian band singer flashing his not so hot round butt...and that got me thinking...WATS CONSIDERED HOT??round or oval or sharp butts????

u noe until now i still cant get over the fact fat gals were considered hot in ancients china! imagine those poor gals stuffing themselves with food jus to fit man's selfish idea of pretty!

oh ya,i went to my neighbour's bbq yester...was quite fun coZ i took care of the little baby and inspite of his EVERFLOWING drool he's such a CUTIE! man...he's my crush for now!hahahaha

oh ya,i noe i've promised to talk bout e rest of the geog trip but i'm lazy to write now so i'll jus post those pics...btw for info i almost got pecked by swans in the icy rivers coz they thought i was food!

oh ya...we took pics in the icy river where we did our geog measurements too!!!! and we went to this space museum where the guy talking was quite entertaining!!!! oh ya.there's this emo shot we took too!!!! and oh oh!!! the shades one was supposed to be a taleban pose...

2008-07-09T19:34:00.002+08:00

HI PEOPLE!!!!

u noe wat???i've been tinking after awhile and i admit i'm such an incurable bitch sometimes...lemme explain...see,i'm always ACTING sad when someone cant join me and my frenz or anything...the worse bit is when u aren't Very close to the person and u act sad when u couldn't even care less whether they die or not...SERIOUSLY

AND FOR UR INFO I TINK EVERYONE'S GUILTY ABOUT TIS.

i jus suddenly thought of this when pp ask me to go somewhere saying it'll be more fun...when both of us noe that it wouldn't even matter if anyone was missing.HONESTLY. and i feel guilty to act as tho i really wan them there when i hardly noe they exist.

i mean come on la everyone.how many of u can safely admit that u NEVER backstabbed,pretend or lied to someone u dont care about but pretend to care about.

so yepp i dun tink i'm e only one.look at me,i confess.i bitch about emeline like there's no tmr( and i'm not e only one K?!) and yet infront of her i'm all smiles even tho both of us kinda detest each oth( i tink).

incase pp tink i'm a super bitch of the year...lemme clarify, i do feel ABIT guilty.but oh heck with it!

ahhhh...amazing how good our acting skils are that we can pretend almost everyday....i feel terrible but hey i cant say that a particular person i'm not close to,matters to me.I jus wun mean wat i say!!!! hahahahaha

looks like no one's that innocent anw...

2008-07-08T16:43:00.003+08:00

CHECK THIS OUT!!! I'M SO SWEET DESSERT...HMMMMMMMMMM HAHAHHAHA zul u shld try this...i tink u'll be sour CHEESE!!!! hahahahaa

anw i passed chem and math...mirace i tell u...i've got a C for math and a D for chem...lol..but e mood today was pretty bad in my class and i got bogged down and became all emo too!

You Are Strawberries with Cream

Fresh and uncomplicated, you are always enjoyed but often overlooked.

You're confident in who you are. You don't need a facade to feel better about yourself.

What Dessert Are You Most Like?

You Are Bold And Brave

But daring? Not usually?

You tend to like to make calculated risks.

So while you may not be base jumping any time soon...

You are up for whatever's new and (a little) exciting!

How Daring Are You?

2008-07-06T12:54:00.002+08:00

WHOO!!!! i'm back!!! ok i've got a couple of stuff to update about but i'm jus so lazy...so i'll jus write the dumber ones...HAHA

well before exams were over and already my luxurius fat ass was itching to bounce off the chair! so i decide to stuff my effing studies one side and go out for lunch...some sorta lunch it was tho i ended up eating erm...2 cookies?????

lol anw,i tink arcade was a total cheapo cheater!!! u noe e bloody cute soft toy was in e claws of e catching machine alrdy????? and then!!!! IT DROPPED OFF!!!! like wat the F*******...so saddening la...

anw, i saw kelly big bum and qiaoling and ber and many oths...at.......J8?!!!! they jus had their training camp thats why they looked so haggard(i tink their actually ageing) HAHA

den the very next day i dragged my fat butt off to go to east coast!!! where i did a great CHARITY WORK

we're supposed to jump 10 times for a bowl of rice!!! and bummer i only reached 200 before this HUGE blister appeared and my skin jus like tore off??

it hurt LIKE HELL and i tink i was sooo incredibly brave coz i din cry tho i cant walk properly!

HAHAHAH

den i went cycling...did anyone said out loud that i'm hopeless at this before?? coz i've IMPROVED!!!! yey!!!i didn't crash 1 time tho i fell alot of times...hahahaha...and i tink i pissed loads of pp off too!!!

AFTER EXAMS

whoo...we immediately headed out to ORCHARD! was weird coz we were like in sch uni??haha and we took neo prints...i swear neoprints photoshops ur face so u look beta!

if only they do it for sch phoos...HAHA oh and we watched WANTED

was damn freaking funny i tell u...i jus giggled like some mental hospital release nonstop!!!

damn exhilerating that exams are over!!! tho i hope to pass....KEYWORD:HOPE

well i'm too lazy to type anymore soooo...pics!

UPDATES ON MY LIFE

2008-06-15T14:17:00.002+08:00

UPDATE...

omg! we had a og outing on thurs?? and it was a TOTAL DISASTER!!!boo hoo.omg, i cant believe i'm such a cycling noob la.from e bicycle shop to about 10 metres away and i crashed already! like straight for e lamp post! wahahaha...i tink i spoilt e bike coz it refused to work! (*OMG...POOR BIKE! AND POOR ME!*)

everyone was like saying i'm sooooooooo LUCKY i din crash into e trash bin which was RIGHT beside it... and i totally agree coz i dun wanna be in pain and still STINK!

omg...and after much screaming n wailing, we started cycling proper but its a disaster coz as everyone in my og noes, i crashed into an indian man on his bike soon after! I SWEAR I'M NOT RACIST! i din crash into him on purpose or anything! jus that i panicked and was too DUMB TO press e brakes...boohoo

i tink i fell off my bike like a million times la! everyone, u can witness e start of cassandra's own video tv titled,ONE MILLION THROW FACE CRASHES.

omg...and worse still,i got hurt when i crashed! i swear this is like hundred times more dangerous than touch rugby! ( Boulder says it only applies to me...WTH!-.-")

anw,we did stop by the jetty and i tink we saw a sword fish!!! it had this really long nose ( kinda like pinochio) and so i tink its a 'sword'...its kinda like swimming ard...makes me tink of sashimi!!! hahahah

den aft we started our grand cycling back,i crashed into a rollerblader this time round! i feel so sorry for him! i tink i knocked him to e ground! and i nvr said sorry coz ,well, i was kinda in shock?? by e time i turned ard, he's gone(maybe he's admitted to e hospital!GASP!)

so ya,whoever u are,i'm really sorry!

i flew off my bike as well and guess wat?i got a grand total of 14 bruises and 6 cuts! and it HURTS LIKE HELL ! @@@@@%$^&%^

well, we played volleyball aft that and it was a PAINFUL affair coz some bicycle guy pumped it up so hard,its like hitting a rock!so we changed to captain's ball! and edwin,i gotta say this! its no fair for us coz u are taller!!!! and i'm short....hahaha

the guy's totally thrashed e gals coz well they were taller!!!

ok back to my mugging regime...i swear its killing me! u noe i even dreamt of exam papers??i tink i'm going mad...strangely i seem happy in my dream to see a grade U but i doubt in real life i'll be this overjoyed!

i worry coz 4H2s are scary....i'm so scared they force me to drop! hahaha.but no worries, i'm a SMART GAL...i tink??

oh yea, will update bout geog trip some other day!

2008-06-10T11:21:00.002+08:00

DAY 3

this day was probably the most boring day EVER!!!! we went to the national capital exhibition in canberra after some serious butt breaking ride!!! hahahaha...we saw some australian parachuters while we were in our bus!!! kinda cool rite???guess a big country is good sometimes other than the frequent sightings of cows and sheeps!!!!

anw,the capital city was sooooooooooooooo incredibly neat i tell u!!!!! its like soooo well planned and everything jus falls into place!!! sorry i have no pics of it coz well,my cam ran outta batt...and for the next few days,my cam spoilt so yupp no pics!!!! all e pics are with fat ass so when i get e pics from her,i'll post it!!!! hahahahahaha

it was really quite boring coz if i'm not wrong,thats all we did that day!!! like omg...anw,we checked in at BIRRIGAI OUTDOOR CENTRE...which was the most rural place i've ever been to in a developed country...there's no decent settlement anw near within 1km...thank god singapore isn't like that!!!!hahahahah

the first nite was awful coz we cancelled e night walk...and there was some freaking problem with the heater that resulted in us dying of cold in the middle of the night!!!! THE FREAKING HEATER HAD TURNED OFF!!!!! like OMG!!! i tink my fingers and toes turned to iced sausages man...

well...the next morning was farrrrrrrrrrr more eventful...but i shall tell u in e next post....wahahahaha.meantime, i'll jus post more pics k?

2008-06-07T12:27:00.003+08:00

DAY 2
WE HAD A NASTY RUN IN THE PREVIOUS NITE COZ WE ENCOUNTERED THIS HORRIBLE CHINESE RESTAURANT!!!! u see they insisted they had a clause that stated that each of us had to pay at least aussie 15 bucks...thats like sing 20 i think?? and the worst part was that they told us that only after we placed our orders....look i'm saying,if the food is exotic and we've never tasted it before, i'm fine with it but these was CHINESE FOOD WE EAT EVERYDAY?!!!!

thank god mr yeo came to our rescue and we walked straight outta the doors of that chi chi restaurant

yea, i noe u guys are thinking why even choose a restaurant rite?? but then in aussie there was no hawker!!!! only RESTAURANTS FOR DINNER?! haha...kinda leaves a bad taste in my mouth....

anw, the temp at nite was awfully cold!!!! there was like mist coming outta our mouths when we talked!!!! lol...and angeline had indigestion so i was practically up at 2am sing time to acc her to see mdm shasila...my sleeptime!!!! oh well,but its ok...u guys dun expect me to let her suffer alone of indigestion rite?? cant jus leave her there suffering!

BACK TO THE SECOND DAY...............

we had cereal and toast for breakfast and many was complaining that its not wat they expected...i AGREE!!! i expected some australian breakfast but hey...no complaints! its still food wat...as long as we do get food, its ok!=)
then we boarded the coach for scenic world where we went to those rainforest and all??its great coz there's stuff like rough tree fern ( coming from the prehistoric ages if i'm not wrong and its HUGE!!!!) and also trees called sexafrens( pronounced sexy frens and i wonder if my spelling is rite!!!)was kinda cool coz we went to this border which borders the tropical rainforest from the temperate ones where there were fir trees and all!!!! GREAT ENVIRONMENT! it really got me thinking how to save the environment....
after the tour ended with our really funny guide,we had to eat lunch on our buses as we were running late! me and lingxian(fat ass) shared lunch together....p.s. weini keeps saying me and fat ass are on the exact same wavelength thats why we get along so well...DOTS...
their western food was great! tho i puked up after that and felt really ill( as tho i'm about to die...it was a really ill experience!)

NW, IT WAS TO THE JENOLAN CAVES!!! ok i admit...that was wat i've been looking forward to in the ENTIRE trip and whoooo!!!! it sure met my expectations...the caves were MAJESTIC i tell u!!!! pity my camera has auto flash in dark areas so the pictures was ugly...but i assured u the real experience was WONDERFUL;!!!!! makes u wanna shout..."i LOVE THE ENVIRONMENT!LETS SAVE EARTH TODAY!"

it was exhilerating...after the visit we went to this river that was the exit point for those eroding water in the caves( prob only those who takes geog understands tis part)...and we saw a DUCK!!! so cute and carefree shaking its puny head...kinda reminds me of duck rice!heh hehe...lol

then it was back to dreary blue mountains where its night by 5pm aussie time and 3pm sing time!!!! i went with pek sia they all to go eat dinner and we went to this cafe which sold potato salad and chicken...we ordered the set WITHOUT NOEING THAT THE CHICKEN WAS COLD!!! kinda nasty experience eating cold chicken...it was...BLEAH!
then we went back to the hostel and slept like a PIG!!!!(as in seriously??)

heyy!!! i'm back from sydney!!!

2008-06-05T14:00:00.002+08:00

heyy people! i'm back le and i'm gonna blog again coz shaun is WHINING away...

but today's post is only bout e first day...

FIRST DAY

well,i went to the airport early to walk about but there was NOTHING MUCH! so i went to dian xiao er to eat its famed duck rice!!! and it was HEAVEN!!! serious?!!! so pp go try e duck rice! e herbal one...anw,angeline oso went there to eat e duck rice!!! lol...and we noe only went we sms each other to mit up! hahahahHAHAHA

we went onto the plane and i noe i was a total sua ku but its GREAT!!!SIA planes are really good coz there were latest movies,games and cartoons documentaries and all....i watched and played for as long as my PIGGY eyes stayed open but i still slept like after a few hours...but i played pokemon at least!!! hahaha

then we reached sydney and i went TOTALLY WILD WHEN I SAW E SOFT TOYS!!!! haha...sorry but i just got this fetish for soft toys...

anw,aft that we boarded this bus to blaxland high school up in e blue mountains!its really great coz the caucasians were soooooooooo GOOD LOOKING!!!! haha...i tink all e gals were quite excited...i swear they are really good looking....even my fren said their average standard is like our good looking so our average standard is their...erm....BETA NOT SAY!!!!

well,we had this exchange of dialouge bout our respective countries!!! then aloysius was like talking bout every room in HIS HOUSE!!! hahahaha it was really funny coz he's like SOME SALESMAN SELLING HOUSES OR HOUSE INSURANCE!!!! hahaha...

but our australian counterpart was quite awed by our seemingly low class HDB flats as compared to theirs!...their flats looked like hotels or at the very least condos u noe???

then aft that they had some performance for us and the gals voices were REALLY good!!!!hahahaha...then we had subway for lunch and me and weini were like desperately digging out e onions...I HATE ONIONS AND ALL SORTS OF VEGES except some...

then it was really funny coz the aussies thought we were JAPANESE! and they keep shouting KONICHIWA!!! and we got this for like 5 or 6 times!!! den me and weini got irritated and she yelled" we're not freaking japanese" and i shouted" BAKA!!!" but its great fun coz they din understand wat we meant!!!! hahahahaha

after that awful scare of subway onions terror....we went to take some pics at echo point and it was BREATHTAKING!!!! the three sisters were beautiful!!!! so romantic spot but its great fun wif frens too!!!! haha...we did stupid poses,jump shots....

then it was to YHA!!! and its pretty good for a hostel as compared to birrigarde outdoor centre which we stayed at later on...

i roomed with angeline and mastufah(is that how her name is spelled?)....and it was SLEEPTIME! we were very exhausted....

ok!! for e subsequent days details ,stay tuned!!!!

pictures

2008-05-19T11:52:00.001+08:00

ooh lala...i tink i'm bored!!!

2008-05-19T11:16:00.004+08:00

well...anw,here's an update!!!

I SAW FIONA IN E MORN!!!! okie i noe its kinda no big deal but i just found out that her grandma's house is in e opp block from mine!!!!IMAGINE e shock i get when i saw her right there calling me...like HUH??

cant believe all this time i din see the obasan la!!!like omg...hahahaha..oh ya,today is e J2 kelly bdae...*she jus thick skinnedly told me the other time*!!! sooooo.......HAPPY BDAE KELLY OBASAN!!!

hmmm....nothing much to update la...so i shall just post pics k??enjoy seeing it!!!

HEYY!!!

2008-05-14T17:16:00.002+08:00

MISS THICK SKIN ISSSSSSSS BACCCCCCCCCCCK!!!!

ok lemme update u!!! firstly,i'm very very sorry to mingwei that i dao him accidentally during band concert and that we din take photo tgt...den i'm also guilty of not calling cheryll lai xin yi to take pics tgt!!! and also guilty for being ignorant that hafiz,ash and co are going to e band concert with e result that we didn't take any pics!!!! anyone else we missed out??

KELLY(JELLY) AND RACHEL'S BDAE...

okie!!! today we celebrated kelly and rachel's bdae!!!they're my touch rug juniors btw!!!kelly got kicked 17 times on her but by me, kim and tammy as a bdae present!!! i'm quite sure her butt is e size of Singapore now...hahahahaha

rachel has her bdae too!!! and i celebrate it by smearing her face with e choco from e cake!!! wat a pity there's no cream!!! AND..............OMG!!! she smeared me back la!!!!! wa lau!!!
haha.even tho its not my bdae, i ended up being coated on e left hand side of my body in choco and i gotta go toilet clean up !!! like OMG LA!!!! u noe half my uni was WET?!!! then like its TRANSPARENT?? and kelly keep trying to guess my bra colour...like wth?? sorry gal, ur guessing skills suck!!! all ur guesses are WRONG!!!!

oh ya,and i gotta walk home like some auntie gholding my shirt AS THO ITS A FAN!!!
well,kelly tried to get back at me by aiming a muay thai kick at my ASS!!! too bad her skills are soooooooooooo lousy...( are u reading this??) she missed!!! wahahahaha.but its kinda scary when she got SERIOUS about kicking my ass so i ended up sitting on my butt on e ATRIUM FLOOR( omg so throw face can...) to prevent her from reaching my butt!!!!\

at first i thought no one was looking but aft that i saw this whole grp of pp STARING AT ME!!! like omg...i kinda wished i could jus evaporate...lol...JANELLE and TAMMY and KIM were like telling me to stop kneeling to them( oh...DREAM ON LA!!!u think u goddess izzit??hahaha) lol.../then kelly said i can stay in that position for e rest of my life!!!lol...jus to avoid her lousy kicks!!!lol

I GOT TRAPPED IN A TOILET!!!

wa lau eh...i swear that kayaker from 0711 deserves to be killed!!! lol...u noe wat??today i went to e handicapp toilet( yes i'm guilty of hogging it) and I REALISED E SENSOR WAS SPOILT SO THERE'S NO LIGHT!!! like omg la!!! then i jus decided to get out then i happen to met him and tell him e sensor spoil...walau then he still VERY SERIOUSLY told me to go in and check again...and i STUPIDLY followed and he closed e door!!! haha.like wth!!! i cant believe i'm so dumb to not see this!!! but its quite hilarious coz i was so stunned i jus laughed out loud...heyy u china man(wat eva ur name) lucky MY TEMPER IS SOOOOO GOOD!!! lol....my temper is good(COZ I'M SUCH AN ANGEL) so i didn't got pissed off...jus thought its very hilarious and stupid of me to be so dumb!!! hahahaha.

TOUCH RUGBY

i miss training!!!!!! and kim and i was tinking we shld jus go nex tues but its like we'll be busy mugging so its not confirmed!!!! hopefully we can!!!=)

CONTINUED FROM PREVIOUS POST

2008-05-11T15:15:00.002+08:00

BAND CONCERT
oh ya...did i mention?? throughout e concert i kept looking out for cheryll and nisha and yu shan...haha
cheryll looked bored la!!!!!lol...but she really looked cute liddat...then nisha looks BLUR!!!! wahahahaha...that gal is sooooooooooooooo adorable...like some small kid!!!yu shan as usual looks serious but i cant really c her face coz her instrument is TOO BIG!!!!

oh ya...i bumped into wendy and she looks....like usual??? neither monster nor alien///hahahaah

sherling was omg so pretty la!!! even thick skin cheryll agreed she was VA VA VROOM!!! haha...

oh ya,worth a mention...me,zoey and jocelyn tried to go back stage to c yu shan but we were STOPPED!!! haha.too bad i guess...that woman was sooooooooo fierce la...i dont remem being stopped from mitting my frenz when i was performing there for dance like in sec4...
but honestly backstage,its really TINY!!!! i still can remem us squeezing thru for our sec 4 performance la!!!!lol

okie...i tink that's bout all bahz!!!hahahaha

PROCESSING DATA!!! PLS WAIT FOR TEN YEARS.

2008-05-11T14:46:00.002+08:00

HEYYY!!!! i'm back!!!! here to update bout ouor stuff !!!! haha

MATCH AGAINST TJC
we won the match but i dobt its much of a big deal anyway>>>we won e seniors 1-0 and draw and the juniors lost both matches...i'm quite proud of e juniors despite their loss!!! but i'm quite irritated with our batch...i just cant shake off e feeling off being excluded in our toouch rug batch la.i mean,come on,all anyone gotta see is the different cliques we're in,the way we play to noe that we're very segregated.i mean,emeline is like sooooooo...i dunno...hate-able?? seriously, i dun care how pretty she is but her character really SUCKS! but she's been better this year...still annoying but not that hate-able anymore...haha

i'm quite envious of e j1s coz i think they are very bonded.like there's no such big gaps between the cliques.Also they've got REAL touch coaches so they can probably do wayy beta than us...

oh ya,there's a touch competition coming up on 31st may and they ask if seniors wanna play.i cant coz i got geog!!!once again,i feel left out.

aargh!!! iso miss track and field!!!! i tink we were very bonded and no one actually felt left out...not like touch rug.oh wells,lucky i'm stepping down so i dun hafta deal with this anymore...haha

BE YOURSELF DAY
haha!!! u wont believe wat i dressed up as!!! a NURSE!!!! lol...seriously,we really looked like professionals...esp ella!!! she really look like one la,with her black outfit and white coats!!!!

haha...jing yi was the ambulance driver(omg,she damn zai!!!) and lixiang,zoey,yu shan,chen,joy were the patients!!! haha...they all look like they got banged by cars!!!haha...
then me and jocelyn were nurses!!!we borrowed chung cheng skirts and white shirts wit our paper caps so we REALLY looked like nurses!!!!
hahahaha.noe something funny??we were like changing,and jocelyn took e bigger sized shirt that was act meant for me!!! so i gotta wear e tiny one and it was sooooooooooo OMG!!! it was like super tight la!!!lol...

then when we were at parade square,e teachers keep asking us to take pics coz we were like some HOSPITAL GANG...hahaha

after that cheryll lai went to smack my hat...she thought its real and not paper...like diao-.-

then it was off to classes...until... BREAKTIME!!! was quite funny coz our entire gang went down together and into e canteen!!!then like OMG EVERYONE WAS STARING AT US!!!!! like so throw face la can!!!!

everyone i meet seemed to laugh hysterically...xiaowei jus shrieked and laugh DAMN LOUD!!! and kwai hoong, emeline,janelle were like so STUNNED...haha.their faces were damn funny...lol

oh ya,some gal cornered me and jocelyn when we go toilet to take pics of us la...like sooooooooo THROW FACE!!!!

haha,jocelyn bdae!!! we smeared cream on her!!!whee!!!! actually, i tink i'm e only one who smeared cream on her..and i oso kena from her!!!lol

BAND CONCERT
WHOA!!!

ME AND ZOEY MEET UP EARLIER FOR A SECRET MISSION WHICH I DARE NOT WRITE OUT INCASE SOMEONE SEES IT WHEN SHE SHOULDN'T!!! haha...anw,zoey was in raptures bout this jacket from FOX ...it like a guy jacket but its kinda cute!!! but she keep wanting to buy those big sizes,in e end she looks like some rice sack la...like omg!!!! hahahahaha

then we met up with jocelyn to EAT!!!* heaven...sigh...*
was really huge portion and i swear i almost died trying to finish it!!!!

haha,then we were off to e concert!!!was quite cool coz everyone was dressed up and its really interesting to see ur frenz dressed up!!! i saw HANNAH!!!! haha.she looked wierd...but my fren said she's pretty lei!!! so...hannah are u listening?? my fren say u're pretty!!!

aft that we went to take pics during e intermidant part...was quite fun...lol

WOAH!!!HANG ON...I'M GONNA...SAVE U?!!!!like real

2008-05-03T12:53:00.002+08:00

HELLO!!! jus heere to pop by!!!! lol...wats withe big hoo ha over the meaning behind my oh-so-cool name???!!!! and pls la...the part bout SEXY,SUAVE AND SMART is sooo totally RIGHT!!!! wahahahahaha...*ok,i'm in like my thickskin realm again*

anw,I'M GOING FOR THE BAND CONCERT!!!wheeeeee....ok,tt's random...listen up u guys out there...i noe that jus coz i'm going band concert doesn't mean u guys must start rushing for e tix to go too rite???!!!! that's esp TRUE FOR JANELLE!!! wheee.doncha jus love me??? no la,jus joking la...

was having a big headache abt it coz gotta dress up and i really really HATE dressing up!!!!
anw,jus to reinforce the fact i'm NOT a bimbo.......i do read newspapers...hahaha

oh ya!!!!!!!!DID I MENTION??? me and my sis went suntanning again...but she din grow any blacker anw,*so UNFAIR!!!* but then she said my ass was huge!!! like wth??? hello...my ass is quite minute if u compare it to the asses of the teachers in sch!!!*ok not all but most*

so sickening...asses are meant to be big anyway...its to block the impact when u get hit by a car at ur ass...prob that's why lingz survives car crashes*she's got a huge ass*no offence gal,but ....its.....TRUE!!!!

oh ya...GEOG TRIP GEOG TRIP GEOG TRIP!!!! lalalalala...bz looking forward to that GREAT DAY where i can jus slack off without a care!!!

today,we're gonna have a friendly against TJC but i doubt its anything exciting coz our standards are abt the same ocnsidering we won them that time was not based on strategy but how fast sha can run and how she can dodge...so ya...hopefully we'll thrash/win them and not vice versa!!!

man...j2 life is a killer.PILES fo homework everywhere!!!blaaaaaaaa*okie,now i'm acting like a sheep...i'm going mad!!! someone! revive me using choco!!!!hahahaha*

WHOO!!!! i'm sooooooooooooooooooo ...wierd?

2008-05-01T13:39:00.003+08:00

heyy!!!! guess wat??,i tink i'm gona like redo this name meaning stuff...and guess wat??
i got an essay in return!!!! whoo...hahaha...its about e same as that time except now i'm using my FULL NAME!!!!

What Cassandra Wang Weimei Means
You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts.You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

oh yea,back to my life as a normal,introverted schoolgal(* wait a min...introverted?? who am i KIDDING???*)

okie...touch rug is gonna have a PULLOVER!!!whee...but in the money sense its not so whee coz i've gotta forked out BIG BUCKS!!!! ...i swear we're gonna like have so many shirts its possible to wear one for each day!!!!

and YES!!! shaun,i'm still going to sydney!!!! wheeeeeeeeeeeee...anw,it clashes with my rugby camp!!! BOOHOO!!! was sooooo looking forward to have fun wif e j1s and now i CANT!!! haix...if only they'll change e dates...but i doubt so...izza cant go too!!! boohoo...haix...

btw, MINGWEI!!! i'm NOT A part of fear factor!!!! lol...YOU ARE LA!!! pp jus hafta go within a 10 metre radius of u and they'll DIE of fright!!!! wahahahahaha...

oh ya,me and wendy went to shop for susan bdae pressie a couple of days ago and it so fun coz we kept looking for really gay stuff to give him...i wanted this REALLY fluffy lollipop keychain coz its sooooooooo gay but wendy said 'dunwan la!!!" then aft tat she wanted this pearl type of lollipop and its super funny coz it looks like it caters to OLD WOMAN type...lol...in the end we settled on some a little gay,a little normal lollipop key chain...lol...

ooooooooooo...so....incredibly tired la. i swear i'm such a PIG! i slept for like 4 hrs yester? and thats jus a nap and barely 2 hrs later, i went to sleep for like 12 hrs.

oh ya,rite now i gotta officially thank nikhil for helping me find those SONGS!!! thx thx!!!(* bows respectfully to old man nikhil*)

FINALLY BACK ON MY FEET!!!!!!!!

2008-04-26T12:53:00.002+08:00

HEY?!!!! wassup darlings??!

haha...i'm in a great mood...tho my studies are still...flagging...but its alrite?!

haha..u noe wat??i only nid to pay 300 bucks for my geog trip!!!!*WAT A BARGAIN HUH??*

i wasn't expecting e opportunity fund to pay so much in terms of subsidies but i was still glad nonetheless!!=)

ANYWAY,me and my sis were lik talking bout WORMS and that reminded me bout something highly gross yet hilarious...you see i was eating FERRERO ROCHER once, and i was thinking why THE CHOCO LIKE TASTE SO WIERD...and guess wat??

i.spat.out.the.choco...

and checked my teeth in e mirror...

ONLY TO SEE A WORM DANGLING FROM MY BRACES!!!!!!!!!!!

like eew rite????
i totally freaked out...and my sis laughed like dunno wat..hahahaha...man i tink my life is SUCH AN EMBARRASSMENT!!!

haix...oh well, lemme update u bout my HIP HOP DANCE COURSE!!!!

it was soooooooooooo hilarious coz wateva ash did was like BALLET!!! and danelle was acting like some old folk...*yes,i'm talking bout u danelle*

and vanessa love to dance like she got attitude...*that's so cool by the way...*

and me?? i tink i looked like some bamboo pole *those shrivelled up type*...heehee
anw,its pretty fun la...i mean look at mr loke dancing...he's damn HILARIOUS!!!and our instructor looks like he's wearing a tin can as a cap...hahahahaha

BAD NEWS!!! i lost weight again...like now i'm 46 kg?? aargh...thats very light!!!
must be coz i mug toooooooooooo much...whee...life's preety carefree now but i gotta make sure i do well...for every single test!!!hahaha

anw,ciao!!! lovess to all!!!*like i said,i'm in a gooooooooooooood mood*

YES!!! FUN!!!!!!!!

2008-04-19T16:32:00.000+08:00

oh shucks...i'm such a NOOB!!! hahahahaha...anw,on thurs we had lotsa GREAT FUN!!! coz its bonding time with the J1s!!!! WHEEEE...
it started off with mathhew teaching us some stuff...*apparently for touch rugby...one,two,three...all tgt...HUH?????????????*

THEN ITS PLAYTIME!!!!

there's this blanket thingy which was incredibly fun coz we hafta remem the names of e J1s?? those first 3 months one was like no problem but those that joined later gave me a HUGE HEADACHE!!! coz i COULDN'T REMEM AT ALL!!!!

HAHA!!! guess wat i asked e J1 on e oth side of e blanket???my first reaction was-----"WATS UR NAME???" hahahaha!!! when i was suppose to say e name, i said this!!!! LOL

then i jus anyhow WHACK and called her AMANDA...which was totally wrong!!!!hahahahahaha...

her real name was SHUMIN...

AFT THAT, we played this human bingo thing which was really funny coz we got to see steph and janelle acting like monkeys* they were supposed to make 5 animal sounds*

then me and kelly had to do cat walk which was UBER DUPER embarrassing!!!!i mean yea i did it last yr to entertain the seniors but its all gals so like laugh already nvm...but this yr got matthew there can!!! so super PAISEI!!!! lucky we stepping down...HAHAHA

oh yea that reminds me of something hilarious last yr...to complete e bingo thing, i had to do e catwalk rite?? then halfway thru this embarassing display at e atrium...E SOCCER PP CAME UP FROM E FIELD!!!! like sooooooo omg can...worse still its like GUYS...NOT GALS! haix...i swear my life is such an embarrassment...

anw, lets move on to the M1 touch thing...we were TOTALLY thrashed...but i think e gals did a GREAT JOB coz they were up against the toughest COMPETITORS!!! they were playing against NJC,RP,SRJC... rugby-literate pp will noe its a tough fight coz NJC and RP are like big fry in rugby while we're small fry??and dun look down on SRJC! ever since they changed their coach to that of RJC coach as well,they've become a force to reckon with!!!

this kinda makes me wonder why we hafta make do wif contact rugby coaches last yr that noes NOTHING bout touch rugby while other schs get touch rugby COACHES...its kinda UNFAIR isn't it???? its NYJC TOUCH RUGBY GALS not NYJC CONTACT RUGBY GALS... are they blind??

oh wells, guess our batch were at the losing end of the rod...

oh yea, i ran into jonathan jus now...and he's really fun to bully coz when i pretended to be ALL INSULTED and demanded" why u dao me???" he went all PANICKY and said NO!!! so loud la...haha...so fun to bully...note to self:bully jonathan everytime u c him...

YES!!!! FUN!!!

2008-04-19T16:16:00.001+08:00

FINALLY ALMOST NORMAL!!!! HEH

2008-04-16T14:56:00.002+08:00

WELL!!!! i've been really stressed up for e past one month and things DOESN'T seem to be getting better...now mr lim wanna call up my parents to ask if i wanna drop 4h2s but i firmly refused...honestly, i'm not so sure bout my decision but thats e thing bout me...when i PICK UP something,i'll never drop it unless i'm forced to...

but i guess things are STARTING TO LOOK UP!!! tho i'm still emoing which is not my usual self but i'm like slightly cheerful!!! my touch rugby nonsense is still not over coz well honestly i'm still so pissed wif xiao wei...during trng,i openly avoided playing in e same team as her...like WHO CARES RITE?? but honestly, i think she is sooooooooooo....*toot*.but that's jus my opinion...or mayb i'm pissed so i say liddat coz usually i find her a dear...but now i'm all crazed up so i would love nothing more than to hate her*LIKE I'M SOOOO TOTALLY BEING UNREASONABLE!!!*

ANW,i realise i've got much beta thing to do ratjher than to worry over how these two minute pp percieve me...and FIRST UP!!! is pulling up my socks!!!i've been in e dumps recently coz my results are absymal,my training is terrible*coz i have no idea why i'm doing so badly...i'm like TEN TIMES worse than last time...* and to add to it,pp keep arguing wif me...

i noe i'm so emo now but hey u cant expect me to be forever cheerful???? i've got emo times too!!!! haha...

okie...so now i should go take a long run*IF I CAN SURVIVE IT* AND TAKE OUT ALL MY ANGER...I SWEAR IT WORKS!!! HAHAHAHAHA i usually run faster when i'm pissed but tho thats wierd but its not my fault!!! blame my biological body...hahahahaha...

YEA BABY!!!!

2008-04-13T11:23:00.002+08:00

hey pp!!!!!!! thx for supporting me!!! when i'm really upset and angry...*like some crazy retarded woman*

ANW,I GOT GOOD NEWS!!!! I GOT AN A FOR MY A LEVEL PW!!!

yey!!!my whole group got A!!! so yupp i must thank my entire grp for putting up with my nonsense when i'm like all agitated...
its really bad when i took it out on them jus coz i'm sick of staying back everyday...

anw, i'm happy that i got an A when i was expecting a D!so happy...you noe my GP teacher was sooooooooo cool??????i was presenting on my GP essay when he said"tho its not yet an A grade essay but....u did get an A for ur PW!!!"

i was soo happy u noe??i was jumping!!!in e end,my former class got like 3/4 As and then my new class...er...e rest got Bs and Cs.
well,guess we all gotta thank miss lee for putting up with our sub standard work la!!!she really helped us big time.

About e touch rugby thing,i followed nisha's advice to talk it out but xiao wei was still acting like a prima donna and probably still pissed...anw,i asked her if i need to go trng tmr and she haven't ans or will not ans,so i take it that i dont nid to!!! imagine being able to slack and still write in SGC...woah,not bad!

to ash:i'm not giving up on u guys but i'm jus tinking whether i'm making myself happy.
to passerby:THX ALOT!
to jermz:dun worry i'm fine...

FINE...I QUIT!

2008-04-10T21:13:00.002+08:00

u noe, today i was so pissed with kim i din wanna talk to her?
everyone said its probably a misunderstanding but rite now, we ALL NOE THAT ITS NOT.
since she said to me that she meant that rather than be pissed,i should be happy for her...which effectively means= "cass isn't showing any support for kim and is a bitch"

She totally bitch bout me today infront ofa all the touch ruggers...so yea.I'M E BAD GAL OFFICIALLY COZ I MADE KIM CRY.LIKE WATEVA LA.

you noe its funny that originally kim had wanted to quit a long time ago and i tried to persuade her to stay on?and now i feel like quitting and she's acting no where like a fren...WAT A BRILLIANT FREN.

i dont care if u asses think that i'm the BAD GAL, but i'm not flaming anyone. jus speaking wat i think.

too bad if i'm not like kim,always lovable and saying sweet stuff for u to hear

thats jus me

AND YEA, I TINK U ARE A TOTAL BITCH TODAY KIM.BE GLAD I DIDN'T DRAG UP ANY MEAN THINGS BOUT U THO U WERE BITCHING BOUT ME LIKE NO ONE'S BUSINESS.

yea,so wat if u tink i got a bad attitude?dont like it?dont count me as a fren.
i totally wasted my time wondering whether i was being mean to kim...ended up she's meaner.to be fair,yea,i took a pot shot at her ...but yea, even then,it doesn't excuse wat she said.yea its hurtful

xiao wei made me go off handle today by picking on me...she made me do 50 pumping jus coz she tink i was talking...yea,i was talking but that wasn't as much as some oths...so it effectively meant she was picking on me.
Instead of doing pumping,i jus stalked off.AND XIAO WEI YELLED THAT I BETA NOT COME BACK...WAT A NICE CAPTAIN HUH?so fine i quit?!

so the whole touch rug thinking i'm a bitch jus coz i effectively went against xiao wei and kim.like wat eva.they always side the ones they like anw...there's really no team spirit in touch rug...in my opinion...coz they always forget me so its no surprise that they side the two that they remem-xiao wei and kim.

sha thinks its all my fault but i dont care.i do wat i think is true...i'm saying exactly wat i thought.maybe xiao wei is also streessd but i wldn't noe.and i give up...i dont wanna make assumptions...but i tink she was too much tis time round.

fine.i wont say anymore if they feel guilty,they'll tell me. but i doubt they will say anything...coz everyone tinks its my fault.i'm jus so tired and stressed.they are adding on to my stress and burden by making me even more miserable.if that's wat they like,i dont care.but i'm not gonna regret anything.coz tho its a waste giving up the frenship and my cca but i'm jus too exhausted to even apologise...fine,let them win.

ANGER,ANGER AND FINALLY WONDER.

2008-04-09T17:48:00.002+08:00

I'M SOOOOOOOOO PISSED!!!!!!!!

you noe i din get into e touch rug team of ten pp yet kim did?? that wasn't so bad and i was just TELLING joel that i tink kim deserves it coz she really did work for it...and i oso did work but mayb it jus aint good enuff...

but THEN!!!KIM PISSED ME OFF BIG TIME TODAY.

i was like jus telling her that i dun tink i wanna go trng coz like so waste time since i'm not in and mayb i'll JUST GO SUPPORT THEM ON THE DAY ITSELF...

THEN KIM SMS ME SOMETHING THAT WAS SOOOO ...TOO MUCH.GUO FEN. she said 'that time u in competitive i not in i oso went for trng lorhz...then now i'm finally in...I THOUGHT U WOULD BE HAPPY FOR ME" that last sentence totally made me BLEW OFF MY TOP COZ ITS LIKE SHE'S ACCUSING ME OR SOMETHING!

i already din wanna go trng anymore coz i'm so disappointed and she JUST TOTALLY RUBBED IT IN BY ACCUSING ME OF NOT BEING HAPPY FOR HER?!!! hello,i mean if i do drag myself to trng its coz i'm making a show of supporting her and yet she dared say tis...

like OOPS!!! so sorry i'm not a STANDARD FREN WHOSE TOUCH RUGBY SKILLS ARE NOT ON PAR HERS, but she totally din have to be sooooo COCKY jus coz she's in. if i remembered correctly, i DID NOT say ANYTHING LIKE THIS when i was considered better than her!!! like so wat if she's in? does it give her a right to start accusing me of ALIENATING HER?!!! i'm so offended now.

and now she's claiming she didn't mean it this way...i dont even noe whether to believe her.!!!! but i swear,if she's gonna be so cocky ,EVEN TO ME, then i'm gonna do everything and anything to give her a NASTY REALITY CHECK!!!*i mean everyone's curious how she got in...i'm her so called 'fren' so i cant say anything derogatory but mayb the rest aren't too happy...*

i'm just SO SICK OF EVERYTHING! i HATE TOUCH RUGBY!!!I HATE IT!!!!

this is one heck of a shit crap that i had no idea was coming along....wtf??

anw, speaking of hich,i'm soooo incredibly hungry but i cant EAT!!!coz i just had DENTAL....RAWR!!!oh yea did i mention audrey's dramatic outburst yester? it SHOCKED ME!!! coz she was all teary that not everyone could play and yet OOPS she went in...*somehow i suspect her tears were directed towards me??*

you noe,if i wanna be harsh,i'll jus say she's acting and is a faker coz i doubt anyone will be unhappy if they make it into the team la...but I JUS CANT IMAGINE AUDREY BEING CAPABLE OF SUCH EVIL STUFF so i believe she's SINCERE...*i mean tears are precious!!! so dont waste it!!!*~

ok back to my emo-ing

NAPFA!!!!

2008-04-05T15:06:00.002+08:00

i SWEAR i hate miss yap *or wateva yap* now!!! so wat if she's PREGNANT AGAIN??? as if e big tummy will save her from e atrocious crimes she commit!!!* playing a direct point in killing my chances of getting gold!!!*

TODAY was a total NIGHTMAARE coz my legs were still acheing ...and WOBBLY!!! i walked like a PREGNANT/OLD woman coz i was just acheing so much!!!

DURING the tests it was like a mental STRUGGLE coz i was jus sooo in pain and exhausted...i KEPT USING COUNTERPAIN TO RELIEVE E PAIN tho it was not much good la.the shuttle run was done so poorly coz my legs were SHAKING so much i couldn't sprint.IT HURTS.but i guess e rest cheering helped me to move tho it really REALLY hurt like nobody's business.it became more like a mental struggle u noe??

ANW, I GOT A5 FOR incline pull ups( only did 18 lehz!!! big DIFF from e 56 i did last time),sit and reach,ahuttle run...

I TOTALLY STRUGGLED FOR SIT UPS COZ E MUSCLES WERE SO TENSE LA!!! in e end i could only manage 16 and that wasn't even a E.i was so upset i cried la...MY standing board jump wasn't any better coz my thigh muscle ACHE SO MUCH I COULDN'T PULL UP MY LEGZ.even with the counterpain on FULL BLAST,i still could feel e pain...at that moment i jus felt like giving up u noe..??
so damn tired,painfully doing every station.jus imagine e bloody torture i went thru!!!

i'm so ashamed of myself to be honest...these 5 items never used to even be REMOTELY CHALLENGING yet now i'm struggling.goes to show how unfit i am from my glorious past huh?

guess track and field is really REALLY effective. mayb i shld jus continue trng intensively like las time...but i'm jus so afraid my body cant handle it anymore.imagine running 5 times a week without any competitions as motivation?

i GOT A FEELING i wont stick to it.haix...time to really think wat i really want.

ON THE BRIGHTER SIDE!!! i tink i've lost weight!!! i went on the weighing scale that time and it was 47 kg!!! man.thats nearer to my weight last time!!!wheee

EXHAUSTED

2008-04-03T22:14:00.002+08:00

SO SORRY FOR NOT BLOGGING FOR SOOO LONG...

i'm here just to relate the tekaning of me during PE ...as most pp who noe me, i'm relatively fit and its quite unlikely i'll fail screening test!!!but i did...jus coz i didn't turn up for the rest of the tests...like wth????

anw i totally WASTED MY EFFORT in running 2.4km...in like 11 minutes la!!!

anw, today was pe so i went to the fail section...it was a TOTAL NIGHTMARE... coz they made us do so much thigh tiring exercises and i'm jus sooo exhausted la.aft all the work on the legs,my muscles hurt so much its so wobbly la. i couldn't even walk down e stairs coz my legs gave way....like SURPRISE!!!

was dragging myself all over...
THEN ITS TIME FOR TRAINING...LIKE WAT THE HELL???

wa,my legs were like screaming...so i just dipped my legs in counterpain*deep heat rub* to like numb it and stop it from wobbling like some disgusting jelly...

then NOW i'm soooooooooooo tired la.haven't finished math tut. and i was supposed to hand up today...but i jus heck la. my body's screaming...i nid SLEEP!!!!!

i was n't focussing on trng during this whole week...adn even xiao wei noes it...
i'mjus hoping eveything will go alright and i can jus relax...

btw, the touch rugby competition is only 10 pp will get chosen...me and kim hopes we can get in but we alrdy noe we cant la...i can roughly guess who's going in...the likes of emelyn,steph, wanjoo,kelly,sha...and all...ahahaha. but i guess we can jus try??? and kip fit too

my junior ming wei jus told me i look thinner...mayb the stress is showing but i'll be strong!!!! STRONG!!! been falling ill more often but i'm jus not giving up my 4H2s u hear me????!!!!! no WAY!!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...*i'm a rugby gal...so dun try me!!!*

WHY IS EVERYTHING AGAINST ME?!

2008-04-01T15:28:00.002+08:00

I'M VERY MOODY NOW.

i just failed chem and maths with S for both.my geog(william yeo's part) failed too.by a mark.i'm so disappointed and somehow these repeated failures jus seem to numb me. now i've stop crying and started acting normal but inwardly i'm very upset. i dun wanna let my frenz see me when i'm all upset but yet this double standard is getting me tired out...

for phy i got a C but thats no consolence at all.NOT EVEN ME GETTING A B FOR GP PAPER 2 CHEERED ME UP.i feel so numb like as tho everything has changed. Tho outwardly i still scream noisily and all but i jus feel very hollowed out. as tho i'm lost!i need some one to bring me back.

i went home yester to a rousing screaming.my parents were furious!!!!i was so afriad my dad would HIT me but he didn't.i dunno somehow i'm so reactive to violence. that's partly why i joined track and field last time to make myself stronger so that i'll be able to defend myself.hah.gosh but now my dad has calmed down and he didn't hit me anymore...but i guess its reflex.

anyway i got something very funny to recount to u guys!!! do u noe half my sch got U for maths?? haha!!!HAHA! like quite ridiculous yet hilarious.

anw,back to my daily sch life.hah u noe today me and yongcheng had this big fight in the middle of phy lecture?? hahaha.he was taking REVENGE for me scribbling on his PRECIOUS notes.lol.

anw, phy lecture was like my war zone...coz yong cheng was threatening to vandalise my notes and we were like struggling like crazy!!!haha.then aft that i found out HE'S SCARED OF TICKLES!!!wahahaha.like so hilarious!!!

then aft all the struggles i came out with a big smiley on my arms and he got a BIG SMILEY WITH THE WORDS BUCK TOOTH!
hahahahahaha

oh ya,i realise that i'm forever doing embarassing stuff...u noe last sat, i was groping for the side of the gate to get outta e pitch?? i was like talking to izza and walking...but guess wat??i was GROPING A FREAKING GUY'S TUMMY WITHOUT NOEING IT!!!IT WAS sooooooooooooooo BLOODY EMBARRASSING!!! like wat the hell? it really wasn't on purpose!!!so now i swear i'll jus LOOK INFRONT BEFORE TALKING! i was SO SHOCKED U NOE??I JUS STARED IN HORROR WHILE THE REST OF THE GALS LAUGHED!!!omg. i hope i'll nvr bump into him again or it'll be soooo embarassing!!!!

TODAY!!!

oh man.another embarrassment filled day! haix.see me and e rest were like queing up for chicken rice...then i was so engrossed in TALKING, i jus walk backwards*towards the stall* and i almost bumped into a satay guy standing in front..LIK OMG!!! wa so throw face...hahahaha!!!like shit i dun wanna bump into him ever again!!! my life is sooooooooooooo embarrassing...

ONCE UPON A TIME...

2008-03-30T11:38:00.002+08:00

SATURDAY:

well we had the annual nyjc sports carnival*like kinda wateva coz it like ponning day coz everyone pon*...and i was a ref/empire...so means i gotta ref touch rugby...

you noe, the touch rugby they are playing is sooo different and abt 10 times easier??when we play the original version its sooo hard to score and te scores always 1-0 or at the most 2-0...but this modified one was just TOO EASY!!! u noe got some teams won like by alot?? they totally thrashed their opponents la...like jeremy and natalie's team...its like 30-2?????? like WAT THE HELL???

but then to be fair,jeremy is a rugby player and natalie is from touch rugby...so yah...

The sun was DAMN FREAKING HOT!!! i applied like COUNTLESS layers of sunblock but i could still feel my skin sizzling there...you noe its so bad that when i went indoors i couldn't see???coz everything seemed too DARK!!!

Anw, why are the RUGBY GUYS GETTING TO REF INDOORS?????

like so unfair...they shld let ladies indoors!!! hahahaha...we went in to take a look *since outside was a bloody inferno*...and were jus in time to see boulder clutching this cold drink...then me and kim were like screaming"I WANT!!!"

haha. i tink we're so silly coz we thought the rugby guys brought their own cooler with drinks in it...turns out they bought it...

1,2,3 CHEY!!!!!

i screamed like crazy during this one j2 match*albert's the big bird class*...coz no one was bloody listening!!!! haha...till albert told me to relax...lik wat the hell??WANT ME TO RELAX THEN LISTEN LA,DUMB ASS!!!!

okie...then the j1s came...oh ya, me and my frenz were like discussing whether the j1s batch guys are better looking than the j2s...and we concluded that YES,THEY ARE BETTER. quite random huh???

anw, aft that, we just left early to go EAT!!!*YES YES YES!!!!* at the ACJC carnival tingy...din even noe there was till bernice told me...then me kim and bernice went there!!!was quite cool coz the whole sch was FREAKING HUGE!!!*rich kids play ground*...then we were lik saying whether they are the snobbish type...honestly, i tink it would have been a TORTURE FOR THE RICH KIDS IF THEY GOTTA HELP OUT IN THE SUN... so i was quite looking forward to seeing their complaining face and all...*yea, i noe i'm a sadist.thahks!!!*

imagine that there were NONE!!! i repeat none...infact they were pretty polite...but i saw some gals eyes looking at us as tho we're tiny warts on their toes as they wlalk past us...seriously, i felt like passing some really derogatory remark in their face ...like something along the lines of"WATCHA LOOKING AT ???MISS FLAT-CHESTED-TILL-ITS-LIKE-A-CHOPPING BOARD!!!!" but as lovely as my name, i didn't...but i still thought they were incurable warts...like herpes.hahahaha

so anw, the 3 of us shared 20 bucks!!! we ate loads...like a pizza,curry udon,drinks,played games and all...oh yea, i tink the curry udon is wortha mention!!! the gals were so generous!!! u noe they gave free sushi??? like sooooooooo unexpected.REALLY!

then there was this games where toilet seats were hung up and brushes were thrown through it...so CUTE RITE?!!!! i couldn't stop giggling... was fun!!! we bumped into natalie,mei gui and lisa !!! our TOUCH RUG JUNIORS!!! then we went to play e toilet bowl ting together!!! was quite fun yet throw face coz like only a few of the brushes went through the toilet seats!!!hahahaha...

oooooooh ya!!! FORGOT TO MENTION!!! we were like almost caught by this pe teacher when we tried to sneak away...phew,lucky we ran off once she's gone...i mean we only left a little earlier than the oths so its not so bad rite????

anw,aft tat playing and all we left coz i was soooooooooooo exhausted* the burning sun and all*!!! and me and kim sat like fat asses in the MRT coz we were TOO LAZY to stand!!! i tink someone took pictures of us lehz...omg!!! those VOYEURS!!!! wat if they put online how?? on the st portal thingy or their nonsensical blogs?? oh man...that would have been GREAT! wahahahaha.publicise our sch for them to see....

UPDATING

2008-03-29T15:48:00.002+08:00

honestly i'm still not in a very good mood as my previous post suggests...but i have lighten up slightly!!!

k so here's wat happened...I TOLD MY DAD I FLUNKED... and i expected to be grounded...however my dad let me out to play...and i felt guilty TRUST ME!!!

ANW,it's a celebration for QIU JING AND CHERYL!!!!

so we went to seoul garden to eat and OMG!!! we are SOOOO TOTALLY LIKE A BUNCH OF GLUTTONS!!!!you noe we started eating at like 1.30 pm and we only stopped gobbling aft 4.3o pm????*p.s. that's coz e buffet had ended*wahahahahaahaha
SERIOUSLY!!!the guy waiters were like STARING at this tiny group of FEMALE GLUTTONS...* US!!!!*lik omg rite?? but who cares?????

then aftwards, cheryll and cheryl gave their bdae pressie for qiujing to her!!! and me and sherling were lik OMG!!! coz we haven't had the time to buy...then so we went shopping!!! and we bought this pair of flats for her...its QUITE EXPENSIVE K?!!!!!!!

okie...now abt THURSDAY!!!MY WORK!!!

THURSDAY!!!!

WELL.I MET UP WITH NIKHIL QIUJING SYABIL TO PLAY pool!!! WHEEEEEEEEEEE...well, i OWNED NIKHIL in the first set la...like TOTALLY!!!wahahahaha.i'm rubbing it in...*hopes he read this post*

anw before i met up with them, i was crying miserably over my chem *yea i noe its hard to visualise*

i cried in e MRT la.so malu.then got this stranger(its a gal) offered me tissues.............AWWWWWWWWWW SO SWEET!!!!!!!!

oh ya. back to my work at K.T. TUNSTALL CONCERT!!! it was huge man!!!the venue!!!!!!!!!! but ushers were'nt allowed to see e concert *like so wierd huh???wat strict organisers*

i was directing people to their seats! i talked till my throat almost gave way!!!! seriously, I ONLY SAW E PLAN LAST MINUTE LA!!! so no time to memorise... so anw, i was repeating like some spoilt gadget "UR SEAT IS AT THE 4TH BLOCK,IT'S LIKE CINEMA SEATING EXCEPT IT STARTS FROM ROW B"there were different blocks so i hafta direct them.

it was fun coz after we finished our work, me my cousin edwina eric and e rest were likesitting on the floor listening to the songs and talking...quite stupid actually...we were like telling our ghostly encounters...

aft that we went to eat and all....reached home pretty late!!! like ard 12.30am??lol!!!!

HAHA!!! ok i would love to tell u bout today cept i'm really tired...been going out everyday since my exams ended!! hope i do well!!!

I WANNA BE STRONGER.BETTER

2008-03-28T00:38:00.003+08:00

i was getting ready to go outta work when mr lim send me an sms...i had to redo the block test coz i failed...

THAT was so terribly incorrigible i jus kinda crumble up.I'VE GOT LOADS AT STAKE HERE.

BECAUSE I'VE FAILED ONE SUBJ,i can predict that i'll get hauled up over my 4h2s and the concern that i wont be able to cope.also my geog trip dreams are jeopardised.

ALL I CAN HOPE IS THAT MR KWEK WILL GIVE ME A CHANCE ...AND THAT MY GEOG TEACHER WILL STICK UP FOR ME.on the pretext of my good promo result.

i was so upset i cried on the mrt.i was totally hysterical. i noe i've havent studied properly, yet i really did try. i did.ok so maybe i crammed into 3 days worth but i did work my ass off.i admit, i haven't been an angel coz i nvr studied.yet i've tried my best to catch up. really.

i was so disapointed i cried...u noe?? and some stranger lady offered me tissues.i was plain hysterical and i noe i was very silly but i'm jus a gal who cant take failures.not coz i dun get them or coz i'm too soft, but because the discipline from track and field make me wanna punish myself.its called SELF-DISCIPLINE.
when it come to oth section, i dare not vouch for it. but when i really want something. i do noe i'll fight for it.

i have no idea how to account to my dad abt this.i've got loads of people to account to.my teachers,the principal,my parents,my geog teacher on the geog trip.

i'm near breaking point.

BUT I''M GLAD I FAILED.because i noe that's the thing i thrive on.once i fail, i will gear myself up to be better stronger.and those who noe me should noe this.

I'M JUST NOT THE TYPE THAT GIVES UP WITHOUT A FIGHT YA NOE?

if that's the goal i want, i'll fight for it.nevermind if it means going against a whole strain of people.

i noe i can cope with 4h2s its just a matter of whether i want to.I'VE DECIDED.i want to keep it. i dun care who is it i'm against but i'll make sure i'll get my way.IF I CAN MAKE A COMEBACK FROM FAILING HALF MY SUBJ AT MID YEAR TO SCORING Bs AND Cs AT PROMOS,this sure as hell aint gonna stop me.for those out there doubting me,that's ur freaking problem arse hole.