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Saturday, July 26, 2008

here to blog!!! today someone said i was too mean to HER coz i insulted her parents...and i agree.SURPRISE! actually i felt very guilty about it but i guess i was too angry to care! i mean i've got enuff from her so i jus exploded...

so i apologised to her.mind u,i'm still angry with her judgemental attitude but its jus not me to not say sorry when i knew i went overboard...jus blame me for being too weird! haha

she said she cant forgive me but i feel beta now coz i confronted my ugly side and did some thing i tink no one else would.i admitted i was wrong...IN CERTAIN STUFF K?!!! i still tink she drove me to breaking point but i tink i shld jus forget it coz i doubt she'll say sorry...

there's something she mentioned that caught me.she said she got a hard life and i had no idea wat she's been thru.that makes me wonder how she can assume i had a comfy life.

despite how cheerful i'm usually,i do hide secrets.coz its too ...i dunno.its hard to talk about it without feeling upset.and also i realised i cant trust anyone or rely on anyone but myself.
i tink if u've been thru wat i've been, u'll agree.
its jus instinct to ...keep cetain stuff to urself so that u'll be stronger.

i tink its time everyone stop takeing me for a spoilt brat with a comfy life.its nothing like that.i may have said some stuff to someone about my past but its not e full picture.its just to hard to say it out coz i feel that its something thats very...hard to accept.

it may have kinda hurt/affected me ( kinda onlyK?!) but it also taught me to only rely on myself.taught me to be strong.taught me to never show my weaknesses.as in the REAL weaknesses.

thats probably why i'm always been in e fight to survive mode perhaps.its e only way i can feel safe??

haha!!! but i've did my best and confronted my meanie beanie side so i have no regrets.like wat i said,i never regret my decisions.even if i've made my new class dislike/hate me,i wun look back.i trust no one but myself!

haha!!!that reminds me..someone said i may be small but i put up a good fight...oh wells cant help it if i'm strong!!!HAHAH
every thing decision i do is usually thru careful consideration...but sometimes i screw up and that proves i'm human.

anw, about today!!!!we went sentosa for touch rugby!!! haix so little pp went but i had fun coz we played beach touch nd volleyball!!!! not bad eh??i tink i manage to get back e hang of volleyball!!!! i managed to spike and jiu ball!!!! not bad k?!!! cant believe i was actually in volleyball for a while last time!!!!HAHAHA...

anw, hannah bluff me la!!! she say she'll pass me my waterbottle!!!but in e end she din!!!tsk tsk!!!

wa lau cheated me rite???!!!!

anw,i'm soooooooooooooo sunburned la!!!! played like crazy in e sun playing amazing race!!!hahaha.i tink my hair was like some carpet!!!HAHAHAHA

but i did had fun...i tink 0706 shld go sentosa soon too!!!(hint hint!!!) HAHAHAHA

den aft that went to get sh lai pressie...tell u she gonna be sooooooooooooo...speechless man...HAHAHA!!!

yey!!! cheerful gal !!!!

hard-boil-egg @ 7:18 PM