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Tuesday, April 01, 2008

I'M VERY MOODY NOW.

i just failed chem and maths with S for both.my geog(william yeo's part) failed too.by a mark.i'm so disappointed and somehow these repeated failures jus seem to numb me. now i've stop crying and started acting normal but inwardly i'm very upset. i dun wanna let my frenz see me when i'm all upset but yet this double standard is getting me tired out...

for phy i got a C but thats no consolence at all.NOT EVEN ME GETTING A B FOR GP PAPER 2 CHEERED ME UP.i feel so numb like as tho everything has changed. Tho outwardly i still scream noisily and all but i jus feel very hollowed out. as tho i'm lost!i need some one to bring me back.

i went home yester to a rousing screaming.my parents were furious!!!!i was so afriad my dad would HIT me but he didn't.i dunno somehow i'm so reactive to violence. that's partly why i joined track and field last time to make myself stronger so that i'll be able to defend myself.hah.gosh but now my dad has calmed down and he didn't hit me anymore...but i guess its reflex.

anyway i got something very funny to recount to u guys!!! do u noe half my sch got U for maths?? haha!!!HAHA! like quite ridiculous yet hilarious.

anw,back to my daily sch life.hah u noe today me and yongcheng had this big fight in the middle of phy lecture?? hahaha.he was taking REVENGE for me scribbling on his PRECIOUS notes.lol.

anw, phy lecture was like my war zone...coz yong cheng was threatening to vandalise my notes and we were like struggling like crazy!!!haha.then aft that i found out HE'S SCARED OF TICKLES!!!wahahaha.like so hilarious!!!

then aft all the struggles i came out with a big smiley on my arms and he got a BIG SMILEY WITH THE WORDS BUCK TOOTH!
hahahahahaha

oh ya,i realise that i'm forever doing embarassing stuff...u noe last sat, i was groping for the side of the gate to get outta e pitch?? i was like talking to izza and walking...but guess wat??i was GROPING A FREAKING GUY'S TUMMY WITHOUT NOEING IT!!!IT WAS sooooooooooooooo BLOODY EMBARRASSING!!! like wat the hell? it really wasn't on purpose!!!so now i swear i'll jus LOOK INFRONT BEFORE TALKING! i was SO SHOCKED U NOE??I JUS STARED IN HORROR WHILE THE REST OF THE GALS LAUGHED!!!omg. i hope i'll nvr bump into him again or it'll be soooo embarassing!!!!

TODAY!!!

oh man.another embarrassment filled day! haix.see me and e rest were like queing up for chicken rice...then i was so engrossed in TALKING, i jus walk backwards*towards the stall* and i almost bumped into a satay guy standing in front..LIK OMG!!! wa so throw face...hahahaha!!!like shit i dun wanna bump into him ever again!!! my life is sooooooooooooo embarrassing...

hard-boil-egg @ 3:28 PM