Ed Ed and EdDy!!

Saturday, October 28, 2006

on tues,i went to swimming complex...only got 4 pp...=)yeah!!!well , abt operation,my mom say we'll hafta wait till 24nov to see e cost shedule and see if we can pay by installment...and thx hui ling for volunteering to help!!!1btw,princess hours-lu is hot but i prefer xin coz xin got tt type of brooding aura...e phy prac was a nightmare coz mr lim says tt e graph is supposed to be str. line...busy brushing up ss and chinese as well as trying to finish e stacks of papers to do...btw,for lst 3 months,where do u guys tink i shld go?1)victoria jc 2)nanyang jc 3)anderson jc???nid help in deciding...having mugging fever coz o's are coming...oso having panic fever coz i'm freakin out...aargh!!!!
cant wait to go for operation ...will u guys come and visit muah???haha...buzy...so hafta go...ciao

hard-boil-egg @ 11:45 AM

Saturday, October 21, 2006

Jus went 2 e doctor yester...they recommended back surgery-key hole surgery to insert titanium screws to straighten the spine...the cost is huge...aft subsidy,its still more than 11ooo...i really wanna go but if my parents cant afford it,i guess its too bad...my reasons for surgery are more cosmetic than health...1)i wnt to grow taller.2)i wnt to get rid of that hideous hump and 3)i'm worried the curve will get worse.
i'm really worried...how on earth is 11000 able to be found?via mail?i was tinking maybe i'll do soft toys and sell it but the time is too short...i must get e cash b nov 24th...
if i do go for operation,it'll be on dec11...i'll have to be in ICU for one day and hospitalised on 10 dec...then,i'll hafta stay in hospital for a week to try and walk...PROVIDED there is no complications...
i'm kinda eager to go coz it'll correct e prob but i'm scared of the pain...haiz...i noe i'm supposed to worry bout my frenship woes,but tis is a far bigger and serious prob...haven't told my dad yet...wat to do?who'll sponsor me?
anyway,i just bought a octopus toy for 7 bucks at ikea yester...its really cute...wateva e prob is,i guess i have to try and raise money(which my dad wun approve...) and do well for o levels!!!

hard-boil-egg @ 12:09 PM

Saturday, October 14, 2006

Really,tis conflict between us is kinda annoying ...why ?coz i have mixed feelings...i'm lik 3/4 pissed,1/8 depressed,and 1/8 don care...i cant deny that i do wish that we were just lik b4, BUT i can assure u that i'm not going to say sorry or rgret my words.
remember that time i had a quarrel ...ended up taking back wat i said to rac and delia coz the one that i was really pissed at was shu zhen not them...BUT if they are expecting me to do tt again,i'm sorry,i'm not gonna do tt ...coz NOW i'm pissed at them 3...
you noe,ling asked me to tink abt good stuff bout them tt time and i couldn't coz i was so pissed off...but aft much thought ,i remembered something kinda hilarious...
it was during e malaysian field trip,me and shu zhen were like having a pillow fight and we decided to surprise rac and delia...and we FORGOT to take our KEY!!!! so we were locked out!!!lucky rac went to call e operator (adult manner)...IT WAS SO STUPID coz we hadn't really packed up yet...u noe,bra and undies dangling frm bathroom,bed...haha...it was so stupid man...
come to tink of it,i remem y i was so freaked off delia...she once asked me tis ques 'am i very cold?y more pp ask u ques than me?"i was so SHOCKED!!! COZ EVEN this SHE OSO WANNA COMPARE!!!!
i really freaked off man,and i really couln't stop trying to avoid her...y?coz i jus realised tat she's very insecure and u noe,worry so much abt wat pp tink abt her...its kinda freaky ,u noe , when ur fren suddenly behave lik tis!!!
nerd fong says i should make up wif them . i'm ok wif tt but i'm not going to make e first move coz i wasn't in e wrong at all!(OMG, I SOUND LIK A BRAT!!!) if they're expecting me to ssay sorry and crawl back,too bad,i'm just not gonna do it...
btw,i just had ham sandwich with ovaltin(o-val-tin-ni)

hard-boil-egg @ 9:23 AM

Friday, October 13, 2006

I jus had a tiff wif them …I mean shuzhen,delia and Rachel..i was like damn piss off coz there were so many incidents I couldn’t take anymore…originally,I wnted to tell them about some stuuf but u noe,they’re those who are so sensitive tt everything is hurting…I kept it inside until a incident made me blow up…I cant say wat it is but boy…I was really steaming…its really hard to keep all e past criticizes inside u jus coz u’re scared that ur frenz get hurt…admittedly,I tink all of u surely don’t dare to say certain stuff coz u scared ur frenz get hurt…
I told ling xian all abt the tiff and we betted on whether they are confused with my sudden outburst or not…I betted tt they wont…coz I dun tink they’ll even care if their frenz die(which is pretty much the truth to me)
Lingz said I was stupid anyway coz she said I’ll be all alone for prom nite,class chalet and blah blah…admittedly,yeah…but then I was not really the kind that care about wat pp tink abt me or trying to fit in kind…coz I’m just not lik delia k…anyway,I was wondering whether I should patch up so I wun be alone but I decided against it…I’m the type that don’t say sorry for wat I say…I stick with wat I say to e end ,so yeah…
But lingz had a point-I should let them noe wat I’m pissed abt coz they do have a rite to noe…so I wrote it down and told them…it mus haf been nasty but hey,it was my true opinion…I’m not like one of those busters who pretend to be very good but back stab the person coz they’re jus scared to tell e person face to face…
So I told them and delia tried to be curt which didn’t work,obviously…I almost laughed out loud coz her voice was lik trembling in her hopeless attempt to act as if she dun care…it pretty much gave her away…the rest ignored me but its not much of a difference considering that I’ve always been a wall flower in that so called friendship…honestly,ijust felt ignored-frenz or not…so its like no difference
I feel so relaxed now coz all hat tension’s gone aft I spilled out all the thoughts I had on their flaws…all along ,I had kept all the straight-forward things I wanted to tell them coz I’m scared of hurting them…at least now ,e tension’s gone(in me).honestly,I’m wondering bout how they feel…its kinda interesting that they can react tis way…if it was me,I would have flown at e gal and pummel her…
So yeah,here’s my explanation to all tat’s interested about why I started tis mumbo jumbo and told them wat I can’t stand abt them…to tink that I really din wanna hurt them but I still id…at least ,I tell e truth so I feel much beta now…no matter if I lose my frenz.at least I told the truth…=)dun get me wrong,I do treasure their frenship but I tink its beta to tell them my opinion and why I’m so pissed…ha!!!so there~!

hard-boil-egg @ 2:39 PM