Ed Ed and EdDy!!

Friday, October 13, 2006

I jus had a tiff wif them …I mean shuzhen,delia and Rachel..i was like damn piss off coz there were so many incidents I couldn’t take anymore…originally,I wnted to tell them about some stuuf but u noe,they’re those who are so sensitive tt everything is hurting…I kept it inside until a incident made me blow up…I cant say wat it is but boy…I was really steaming…its really hard to keep all e past criticizes inside u jus coz u’re scared that ur frenz get hurt…admittedly,I tink all of u surely don’t dare to say certain stuff coz u scared ur frenz get hurt…
I told ling xian all abt the tiff and we betted on whether they are confused with my sudden outburst or not…I betted tt they wont…coz I dun tink they’ll even care if their frenz die(which is pretty much the truth to me)
Lingz said I was stupid anyway coz she said I’ll be all alone for prom nite,class chalet and blah blah…admittedly,yeah…but then I was not really the kind that care about wat pp tink abt me or trying to fit in kind…coz I’m just not lik delia k…anyway,I was wondering whether I should patch up so I wun be alone but I decided against it…I’m the type that don’t say sorry for wat I say…I stick with wat I say to e end ,so yeah…
But lingz had a point-I should let them noe wat I’m pissed abt coz they do have a rite to noe…so I wrote it down and told them…it mus haf been nasty but hey,it was my true opinion…I’m not like one of those busters who pretend to be very good but back stab the person coz they’re jus scared to tell e person face to face…
So I told them and delia tried to be curt which didn’t work,obviously…I almost laughed out loud coz her voice was lik trembling in her hopeless attempt to act as if she dun care…it pretty much gave her away…the rest ignored me but its not much of a difference considering that I’ve always been a wall flower in that so called friendship…honestly,ijust felt ignored-frenz or not…so its like no difference
I feel so relaxed now coz all hat tension’s gone aft I spilled out all the thoughts I had on their flaws…all along ,I had kept all the straight-forward things I wanted to tell them coz I’m scared of hurting them…at least now ,e tension’s gone(in me).honestly,I’m wondering bout how they feel…its kinda interesting that they can react tis way…if it was me,I would have flown at e gal and pummel her…
So yeah,here’s my explanation to all tat’s interested about why I started tis mumbo jumbo and told them wat I can’t stand abt them…to tink that I really din wanna hurt them but I still id…at least ,I tell e truth so I feel much beta now…no matter if I lose my frenz.at least I told the truth…=)dun get me wrong,I do treasure their frenship but I tink its beta to tell them my opinion and why I’m so pissed…ha!!!so there~!

hard-boil-egg @ 2:39 PM